This is why we live One Day At A Time, itâs not just for your drug of choice itâs for life. Imagine on Monday morning you wake up and you have an empty bucket during the day some not too important thing happens but it pissed you off a little so you put that in your bucket, the next day a couple of other things happen and they are only little so you put them in your bucket but you are already carrying yesterdayâs resentment and the bucket is getting a bit heavy and this is beginning to get you a bit angry. By the end of the week that fucking bucket is overflowing you just canât carry it any longer, itâs driving you mad. Your even by this time looking at everything and everyone wound up thinking you better not piss me off Iâve got enough to deal with with this bloody bucket, look at it canât you see what Iâve got to carry about all day.
if you can empty your bucket at the end of the day eventually youâll be able to leave it at home.
I would like to know how to let go of all that anger and resentment. Like⌠I pray every day for God to help me let things go, and hope that it releases that anger and resentment in the process. But it doesnât seem to work - not for long anyway. Something will happen and my anger is renewed.
Maybe itâs a process, the letting go. Maybe it doesnât happen all at once.
Trust me I feel anger, I feel every emotion bc we are human, this is fine but the thing we have to learn is not to show it. Iâve spent years walking into situations where I am ready for confrontation and I have got it but now I breath, stop to listen and think before I open my mouth. If what Iâm about to say or do does not benefit in any way I shut up or politely nod. Inside I may be raging like I was today but the world around me was still calm.
And Thatâs a smart and mature way to be. And i think Iâm pretty successful in controlling my angry reactions. But sometimes Iâm so full of anger⌠Sigh. Well i try to work it out with exercise and such. Thatâs keeping it in check for now. Lol
Damn this human condition thing huh. 
TBH it does take some practice but like anything the more you do it the easier it gets. Itâs like muscle memory and youâll instinctively see your anger before you have time to mentally react to it. itâs hard to explain but I stop it bc I know itâs there, itâs just a thought that is not real and laugh at it and think and do the total opposite to what anger would expect of me.
Anyway this is all getting far too deep 
Pre Xmas fear going in the bin tonight not bc of relapsing but itâs a busy time at work, a lot of responsibility but Iâve done it drunk for 18 years Im sure I can do one sober.
little bit of stress, selfishness and lazyness. In the bin 
Lazy, here too, @Dolse71. I feel like hibernating. And hard on myself about not being more fit, In you go!
irritability and lack of patience can go out with the trash for me!
Finally, I can throw 2020 in the bin.
I wanna toss regrets and dwelling on the past out.
I think we can leave 2020 in 2020 and start a fresh tommorow. On a world level itâs been rough but on a personal level itâs been a great year.
My big regrets are further back and I agree, itâs been a good year on a personal level for me, too. I want to remind myself to stay present and looking forward positively.
I donât mean to sound all righteous as I can only talk about my own experience but on paper I should be in a padded cell rocking side to side while chanting jibberish. With my new found god and a daily program topped up with Buddhist principles Iâve been given compassion for everyone who wronged me and forgiveness of myself for being sick. I canât explain it and I wonât apologise for it, right here right now is our everythingâŚ
I hear you!
You and me both, Rosa. I read somewhere that Forgiveness is accepting the fact that the past cannot change. And it canât. So we should donour best to forgive ourselves and others. 
Just a little bit of self pity today. In the bin 
Today Iâm throwing out the need to micro manage everything. I will let go of the fear that If everything doesnât look good or get done right or go my way then Iâve failed in some way.
good choice 
Life is a lot easier when we stop playing god. 