No, you should not give up. Absolutely not. And I’m glad you’re still here or back here.
Everything gets better, right? - In my experience, things got worse as long as I didn’t start digging my heels in and cause a change of direction in my life. All the regret and self hate and misery did not get me there. Making commited choices and then sticking by them day by day did.
I stopped drinking, began intensive psychotherapy, I work on living a life that does not cause me misery every day, I learn about myself, try to not bullshit myself, and try to abide by healthy habits.
Here are some resources ppl are using to get from where you are to a better place: Resources for our recovery
Also this thread is invaluable: Your #1 tip for sobriety (over 2 years sober)
What are you willing to do to get sober?
Acitivity level on here should be the first and easiest thing to change, imo.
Best of luck!