Hi Randie, what have you tried to do to get sober? apart from just trying not to drink? how have you tried to change your life?
I’ve had a look at your other topics. You’re not in the habit of coming back and interacting with the people who lend you a hand and give you advice. It’s more the pattern of cry for help and then going AWOL.
They say if nothing changes, nothing changes. It looks to me like you need to make sobriety a priority in your life and actually start taking some measures to give yourself a chance. Meetings, interactions here (that means back and forth, sharing, being accountable, not dropping one dramatic topic then disappearing), reading literature, starting therapy - these and many many more measures would be beneficial to you. You gotta start putting in the work.