God yes almost a week. A few hours from it but again I hate the night. It’s only 7:30pm and I so want this glass. It really helps to write here but you guys must think oh my God. Not again. Every night she is writing the same bs… And I am feeling like this. Every night I have to write here so that I do not drink. So stupid!
OMG guys… I literally poured a glass of wine in front of me. Looked at it. Smelled the wine and hated the smell… I thought about it and I just like the feeling of being tipsy. Not even drunk. Just this tiny bit tipsy… I really don’t like the smell nor the taste. I eventually flushed down the wine in the sink and here I am back in front of the TV watching something… I just don’t want to think of alcohol… Going to bed soon and I’m proud of finishing day 6 sober…
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I don’t overly crave alcohol but always think I’ll just have a few at the end of a hard day every so often and then it happens…1 becomes 2, becomes 5 becomes waking up with a hangover full of regret. I’ve had too many threshold moments and now understand I can’t have any drink. I feel full of excitement like I’m starting a new chapter but am also anxious as hell! Day 2 done!
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Always remember - you are never alone in this fight. We are all over the world, dealing with our own addictions as best we can. The brilliant news is that a bunch of us found each other - and work really hard to help ourselves by helping others stay clean and sober.
You won’t always think of alcohol every evening. During my first month, I couldn’t go five minutes without thinking of a drink. Gradually it became hours of freedom, and now I have entire days when alcohol does not cross my mind. It gets easier the more time you are sober.
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Reaching out and journaling are two tools you are using in this thread to stay sober. I don’t think anyone is thinking “Oh not again”. To me it just looks like you are trying really hard to stay sober and talking through it, and I think that’s something the whole community can get behind. And if someone doesn’t feel like reading your posts for whatever reasons, they can just not read them, you’re not forcing anyone to listen, people come here and read because they want to.
I am glad you are doing this. Don’t let anxiety stop you. By the way, I’m writing this post not just hoping it’ll help you but also to remind myself of the same things.
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SEVEN days. 1 week!!! I’m so proud of myself that I made this really hard week. I haven’t been sober for that long!!! Actually since my last pregnancy!!! I am so happy today. What a beautiful day. But it’s Friday. Oh I wish it could be Monday… Friday is hard. And the weekend coming too… Let’s see how it goes…
For all of you I wish an awesome day!
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Just keep doing what has been working for the past week, and shed the stuff that’s made it harder! Keep being awesome!
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Thank you!!! How are you? You seem very positive and always in a good mood. Sooo cool
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Congrats lovely that is so very awesome you should be so proud you have been so strong so far and you will only become stronger i hope you have a great week end xo
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Haha thanks 
Right now I’m a little tense from my life circumstances right now but mostly content, if a little tired.
Honestly I have to work hard at staying positive, for some reason it’s easier to be positive towards others than to be positive with myself.
I try to post mainly when I’m clear-headed, and if I’m not, I try to focus my posts on seeking support and getting a better perspective or getting through my struggle. There are certainly threads to be found where I’m not in a great mood. My thread “The ifs story” is an example, and I’ve asked for help under the Emotional Support category as well. I do much of the same kind of sharing there like you’re doing here to journal what I’m going through and learning and how I’m navigating my struggles. I don’t have a secret good mood strategy unfortunately 
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You are doing great. Make sure to have a plan for when the cravings hit. What will you do instead of having those end of the week drinks? Pedicure? Movie? Netflix marathon? Keep practicing “extreme self care” at this point. Try to remember that alcohol is never a reward for folks like us; it just keeps us sick.
Focus on today. Stay sober for today. You can do it!
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My first Friday night, going to be hard, not used to not doing anything on a Friday night but determined to do it.
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You sound so bubbly. Full of worries, but bubbly. Keep up the good work. I agree with you about this forum, just being in contact with other people in the same position is a great tool. 
I’m angry at my self. I fell yesterday and had some wine. didn’t exaggerate so I don’t have a hangover but I still gave in. And that’s what gets me. There was no special trigger. Probably night and a Friday night being at home… But still I didn’t even like the taste of the wine. Just downed two glasses so I got the effect of it
So stupid. Just to wake up with full of guilt and thinking I’m such a failure…
Anyways I’m going for a run in the forest to get a clear mind. So here I am with day 1 again
Wishing you all a beautiful Saturday
Day 1 of being sober done… I feel so stupid for having to restart all over again. But this time I will hit the double digits. I will go much further than last time. I just have to believe in myself.
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Glad you’re getting back on the horse. Early sobriety is really tough. Relapses early on are unfortunately common, and really tough to see coming and avoid, but you don’t have to go through them. I have 21 phone numbers now that I can call any time of day when I get to that “heading to the liquor store” point, largely thanks to AA. Did you reach out to anyone when you saw the relapse coming?
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You know what? I reset three days after downloading this app. That’s when I could no longer deny that I am an alcoholic. I was trying to quit. I promised myself I would not drink that night - and my word to myself meant absolutely nothing. My addiction was beyond my control, and I had to get help. I could not just wish to be sober.
218 days later, and I have not reset again. I work my butt off at staying sober. If there is the slightest urge to drink in my brain, I call another alcoholic and talk through it. I come here and read. I ask for help.
What will you do the next time a craving comes up? You can do this. It’s not easy for any of us - but you can do it if you are willing to do just about anything to stay sober. Do you have sober friends you can/will call? Perhaps it is time to think about a recovery program where you can get some support? AA saved my life. Others have great results with SMART, Women for Sobriety, SOS, etc. Does that sound like a possibility?
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Continuing being sober and enjoying it sooo much. Life is good. I don’t need this damn alcohol. I want to be able to keep strong…
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And I kept strong and sober… Every night going sober to bed is a battle won… Good night everybody
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Good morning everyone. A fresh start into the new day. What a super amazing feeling being sober. I love it and I want to keep on doing this path of my new life forever…
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