Good morning, Amy (it’s morning for me here)
How are you doing? How you feeling? Hope to hear from you.
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Morning! I just am getting ready for work. I’m okay. I slept 12.5 hours last night. I’m still very very tired. Feeling a little less hopeless than I was yesterday but I know that since I’m not as hungover as I was yesterday tonight is going to be hard for me.
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Meetings or other contact with sober folks works wonders in two ways:
- It is a rewarding way to fill your idle time.
- It can keep the memory of how it used to be fresh and active. I know too well that feeling of feeling a little better now, so I can handle one or two, thank you! And it was always a lie, it always ended badly. Being around sober folks keeps that memory green for me.
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Why is tonight going to be hard for you? Work? Friends? Stress? I’m just curious because that is where the problem exists
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I’m usually way more serious about not drinking when I’m hungover. Now that I’m not feeling as crappy I’m less ‘I have a problem’ you know? Definitely stress as well.
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That’s a good amount of bed time but I know my first night it wasn’t actual sleep. As the days progress and you continue a bed time routine the actual sleep quality will kick in. Hang in there little by little it gets better. What also helped me was to not think ahead in the day. Just the moment in front of me. Stay connected. Here’s a thread you might like.
Happy Saturday to you.
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Lordy that is so common for so many of us, no matter what your addiction.
It’s weird, in our lives at some point we got into our addictions like they were a hobby, you know? Like “what am I going to be/do if not that?” How am I going to spend my time?
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This is so true!! In the moments where I have nothing to do I say “gosh this sober thing is so boring” can you believe that!! But I regroup come here or get up and get myself busy and live and breath sobriety information. Very early on here so the booze runs through my mind like a day long marathon 
. Still sober getting through day by day.
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It’s totally weird I know.
I found - I’m still finding - that I have to choose new ways to spend my time. I recently started playing the guitar again (and performing for friends), and it is a blast.
I’ve also gotten into running. Not hardcore or anything - just like, 2-3 km - but I start my days with it and I find it really starts the day off well.
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I do love running and I have worked out this week a lot more than I use to while drying. That’s a plus and have been feeling pretty good about it. Hope everyone has a great sober Saturday.
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I totally understand that!
Here’s the thing… I myself said “ugh I feel terrible I don’t want booze” then drank when I felt great… Then it progressed to drinking when I felt terrible only to feel better for a very brief time… You then realize over time the excuses for drinking are everything. I feel great drink, I feel stressed drink, I accomplished something drink, I finished cleaning up drink, bad day at work drink, great day at work drink… alcoholism is progressive and it will only get worse. You have a chance to nip things in the Bud. Why keep trying to learn from your own mistakes when you have people here telling you their mistakes? Learn from everyone else. Far too often I see people on here say exactly what you said, the community crafts thoughtful replies, useful replies, advice that works. Then the next week the same post. Sobriety doesn’t magically happen because you want it to, it takes a lot of work and support. I wish you the best. And don’t drink today
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I have been going through some medical stuff lately too (which is a reason also why I haven’t wanted to drink) with my head and I actually said to my friend the other day ‘it’s super weird but my head doesn’t hurt after I’ve had a drink or two.’
Ultimate bad right there.
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Hi and welcome back. You don’t have to feel this way again. Stay hydrated. A solid womans group will help. I’ve been new a whole lot also. You can do this and you will feel better. If your Mom sees change, my guess is she’ll stop hounding you. Hang in there and keep reaching out.
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Indeed. At least you see that. That is definitely small progress 
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I’m definitely trying 
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Thank you 
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It sounds like maybe you’ve been unconsciously self-medicating? Am I reading this right?
If so that’s super common. So many of us self-medicated with our substances and behaviours. In my case my addiction was partially self-medication for unrecognized ADHD, partially self-medication / self-numbing for depression. After speaking with my doctor and with my therapist, and coordinating to see some specialists and get some assessments and ideas for treatment, I am on a medication and counselling routine that is transforming things for me.
It is worth the effort. Lean in to your feelings and trust that your body is telling you the score. It’s just a question of exploring new options, healthier options. 
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I mean I don’t want to put my recent diagnosis on here but no I don’t think I was self medicating for that. Depression definitely. But I use it as a coping mechanism when my life is terrible. Which this month is one of the worth months I’ve had in a very very long time.
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That makes sense. That lying by the addict voice in our heads is universal. We all have that voice that says “yeah it’s fine, just do it, you’ll like it”. It’s always wrong, but until we tell that asshole to fuck off, and we work on ways to keep it gone, we keep getting tricked.
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You’re very very right
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