Your story is exactly like mine. Sober for a while, think you can have a social beer, then a few months down the line worse than ever. I have just finished a 4 week binge with a 4 day bender. I am hanging on to my job and my family by the skin of my teeth.
I am on day 6, it was tough but well worth it.
We have too much to lose and little to gain.
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I slipped and had a drink with 9.5 years sobriety. It’s took 8 years for me to get the 116 days I have now. Welcome back.
You are worth it!
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There’s always lower to go, unless you put down your shovel and stop making it worse.
Time to do more than last time.
You’re the key to your own lock, get active in sobriety, make it your absolute number 1 goal and life will open like a well fed flower for you.
You’re worth it, so work it.
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There is a lower bottom that you still have the chance to prevent. You still have your daughter. You still have your life. You haven’t ended anyone elses.
When I realized that my decline was picking up speed so rapidly there was only one place it was going to end, I had to get help. I am and always will be an alcoholic. I am also am alcoholic who cannot stay sober without help. I have to work on my sobriety every single day - and every single day I have to be grateful for my second chance on life.
You have another chance. You don’t have to do it alone. Reach out when it is hard. So many of us get it and will help you get through. You did it for six months, so you know how. Maybe just reflect on why that six months ended and what you need to do to stay sober in each day, one day at a time.
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Be strong and love yourself! It’s OK
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You’ve 
got this
I think a lot of us have made the mistake of thinking we can slow down rather than stop. I’ve never heard that end well for anyone. But we can pick ourselves up and learn from our mistakes. Humans can be resilient little buggers when we want to be.
Maybe try and widen your support circle compared to last time? Is there anyone you can talk to when times get tough?
Sending you and your daughter all the good vibes! X
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How are you today? I wanted to suggest maybe going to a meeting? It sounds like you can really use the support right now. I hope you can come up with a good solid plan to get back on track. Today is the day to start. You can do this, both for yourself and your daughter. 
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Thank yous all so much. My pattern is usually binging once a week rather than daily drinking and drug use. So I’m still feeling the effects of the last hangover. I actually looked up aa meetings in my area. There are so many. Most are closed meetings though? I need to look more into this and I’m so nervous to do it. I feel so ashamed as I had so much support the last time. I had cognitive behavioural therapy, I had an addiction counsellor. I really got all the tools and here I am. Yous are all so kind though, I’m definitely feeling blessed today. I love the theory of the second chance at life thing. I hate this darn addiction x
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Don’t ever give up trying. You can do this, you ARE doing this. I was a binger as well, so I understand that part of it. Keep working on your self.
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I have relapsed a few times too. Do not beat yourself up. The secret is to realign your mindset and thoughts and set yourself back on the journey. Clear your mind and build your will to beat this, set your start date then go for it. You did amazing to do 6 months set that as your bench mark. Good luck #determination
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I’ve learned that I have to plan my life around sobriety…not to fit sobriety around my life. Big difference between the two.
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We all care about you! Just get that support system back in place and give it all you got. You can do this!!
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I’ve been where you are at. A few times. You just have to start again. Don’t beat yourself up about it. It will just make it worse. One day at a time. You can do it. 
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It’s totally okay to be nervous for your first meeting. Everybody is. Most of the time, when I hear people talk about their first meeting, it was a very positive experience where they felt welcomed and understood.
You can go in, sit where you want, and you don’t even have to talk if you don’t want to. If you mention that you’re new, people may offer you their phone numbers. It’s up to you. Open meetings are a good place to start, but it doesn’t have to be an open meeting if that doesn’t work for you. Closed generally just means it’s only for people who want to stop drinking (i.e. not friends/family/general public, just alcoholics). My first meeting was a closed meeting, and it was fine. There are even beginner’s meetings, that you might feel more comfortable with. Walking in the door is the hardest part.
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Then get back up. Again.
I went to my first AA meeting tonight. I walked passed the door a few times before I walked in. Yes I was nervous and anxious but I am glad I did.
Honestly you have nothing to fear.
I left with a feeling of hope that I have never had.
It was a closed meeting.
We have nothing to be ashamed of and you will feel even less shame at and after the meeting.
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Well done! Keep coming back 
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For all y’all that skipped over this, reread and then read again. Newcomers trying to figure out how to get sober, read again. The sober vets with months to years, reread.
This is how it works. Change yourself, not your world, the world is outside of your control.
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You can do it and don’t give up. My daughter is 5 years old and I will be celebrating a year finally after trying over and over to get sober the whole time since I had her and relapsing is just lessons but does not mean we have to give up because we fall down. It’s really hard when we have kids looking up to us and it’s really hard when we choose alcohol over everything. But if you give up now someday in the future you won’t be able to look back and say I did that. The last time I realized I almost lost my daughter I only drank for about a month after quitting for 7 months but I had a sick feeling in my stomach that if I didn’t try again I would lose her and she means the world to me. I believe in you. don’t lose hope. you got this
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Wow that is absolutely stunning something I have never heard and you are so right
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