What would u do continue to fantasize about men and women or let a therapist decide??
Thereās your problem.
āLet a therapist decideā
A therapist decides nothing for you. They help you understand and assess your thoughts and emotions based on what you tell them. Often times they are just an ear while you talk things out on your own. I often have therapy sessions where she says very little but I still get a lot out of it, and she never tells me what to do. We talk things through, but itās always up to me to decide what action to take and what to believe.
And, again, weāre talking about a 16 year old child here. Thatās the main thing Iām taking issue with in your stance. Suggesting they go out and sleep around to figure out their sexuality is irresponsible and potentially dangerous.
Again, is this what you would suggest to your 16 year old child?
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Hello.
It seems that you are quite young and still inexperienced. Take a few breaths and calm down, you may be confused but donāt be in a rush to define yourself. I would suggest taking an indefinite break from porn and then giving some time for your mind and spirit to bounce back. Donāt worry about what you have watched, that is in the past. Focus on yourself and then decide later my guy. Good luck
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Certainly. This topic is definitely one that strikes close to home for many of us - itās very personal.
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Porn addiction is a pit with no bottom. Decide today to put it behind you. You cannot imagine what kind of trouble you will be in, if you donāt stop. Iām sorry to see you in this predicament.
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I understand it can be scary to deal with these feelings. I am a lesbian and didnāt come out until I was 27. I was terrified of what my family would think and I would make up reasons for how it was impossible for me to be gay. I used to watch lesbian porn in secret when I was your age (Iām 30 now) and not tell a soul it was a dirty pleasure that made me feel sick when I thought about it too much. I was in terrible denial from myself and everyone around me, I was unhappy and afraid. I went to years of therapy and couldnāt open up about my sexuality, even though I had more then one therapist ask about it. I married a man and have a beautiful son, but I was so unhappy, not truly being myself and ended up in a very toxic relationship. A lot of the toxicity had to do with me living a lie, there were other factors of course but I left my ex husband and was honest about my sexuality and we are not only wonderful co parents but great friends. I got to a point where I chose me and my happiness for the first time in my life. In the 3 years itās been since I truly became the real me I am so happy, I have an amazing partner and my son is thriving. I wouldnāt change a thing about my coming out story, but I would have saved myself years of anguish if I would have been open and honest at an earlier age. I am not saying that you are gay and watching a particular porn and orgasming to it doesnāt define your sexuality either. Even if your family, friends and culture donāt truly understand homosexuality, it doesnāt make it wrong or shameful. Donāt beat yourself up, I agree seeking a therapist would be really helpful, but you have to be honest and willing to put in the work to get the answers you are seeking. Never be ashamed of who you are, the LGBTQ community is the best out there (other then recovering addicts of course) if it turns out that you do have a real attraction to men as well as women or whatever we will always be accepting and Iāve made so many friends/ chosen family then I can count, it really is a beautiful thing. Donāt be too hard on yourself and make sure you are prioritizing you and what makes you happy, life is too short to live it for others and their expectations. Hang in there and good luck with everything 
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You wonāt ābecome gayā just by watching gay porn.
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I totally get the wanting to be normal part. That was me when I was 16, having sex and relationships with girls just to be ānormalā. While secretly also having sex with men and boys but keeping that a secret to everybody, friends, family, everybody. I kept that up for years and years. Itās a road to an unhappy life friend. To depression and addiction, to porn, to alcohol, hashish, to whatever is available where you are. I know. Iāve lived this life way too long.
I know now I like both boys and girls. That I am not ānormalā (btw, what is normal anyway? Nobody is normal I tell you). But Iām so messed up that with neither I can have a true relationship as in man and wife or man and man.When I was young I was with girls because I wanted to be normal, not because they were girls I really loved. I was with men because I was horny and wanted sex, not because I loved them. being like that for years and years really messed me up. Donāt do it.
Find a way to be honest, at the very least to yourself. A therapist might be a good idea. Or someone you really trust, although I know how hard it is to find someone who is really trustworthy in these sort of matters. I understand how hard it is to process this stuff, especially when you have a faith and are in a society that thinks very negative about same gender love and sexuality. Still trying to be someone you are not will only lead to unhappiness. In the end you got to find a way to follow your heart, however hard that may be. Itās the only way to a happy fulfilling life. Success friend.
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Well said Menno. And like you said, itās ALL normal! Being true to ourselves is the important part!
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Hi @user920 sorry to hear that you are struggling with this. Finding our identity is something that can be difficult and troubling.
There is lots of well meaning and helpful advice here, but I wonder if a forum specifically for discussing sexuality may be helpful to you, if that is your main concern? E.g.
https://able2know.org/forum/homosexuality/
I also saw this forum for LGBT Muslims, although this may not be what you need as it sounds like you are unsure of you identify as LGBT.
I am conscious that a lot (if not all) of the replies you are getting are not from people in your part of the world and I donāt know enough about the culture you live in to know what is possible or acceptable for you.
If you want some help stopping porn use, this is a great place for it, but in one of your comments you say you donāt have a problem with porn, so I am unsure if thatās what youāre looking for?
I hope you find the answers and the help you need, whether thatās here or elsewhere! You deserve a happy life 
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okk so i dont like guys or love them i fo like and live girls but i have some sex attraction to boys what can i do to destroy this attraction ? my first step was stoping gay and straight porn and masturbation
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ok so i love in lebanon where having sex with a boy will let u in prison for 4 years and i wanna be normal / i dont have any love feelings for boys i just have sex attraction btw i love gitls and i wanna have sex eith them ( i started by stopping gay porn and masturbation to help myself more from being normal)
thank you guys for the support so its been 2 days for me not watching gay and straight porn and 1 day for not masturbating iam trying to reach a 1 year / and iam sure iam not guy vuz i dont like boys i just have some sex attraction for them because og porn
thank you for the support so firstly ur lifr is what i want i want to have sex with girls and marry one and also secretly have with boys too but iam not gonna do like that so ik thay i dont have feeling for boys i just have small sex attraction and iam trying to destroy this attraction ( firstly i took a break from porn and masturbation for like a year) when u were my age fid u watch gay porn? and do u think me as a muslim can distroy this small sex attraction
lately uve been helping me so much but bro iam a lebanese arabian muslim who is 100 sure thay hes straight he just have like 10 %some bi sex attraction and in my beliefs this small gay attraction(not love) is because of porn and things ive done with boys do grom yestarday iam stopping porn until a year to help myself and please keep helping me guys u are the only ones i can talk to i cant eveb tell a therapist maybe theyll tell my mom or dad ( i want them proud og there real men son) take ij consideration that one day i hope ill destroy this feelinf
I think you should start by cutting porn out. Porn doesnāt really add any value to your life, and itās a good idea to stop watching it anyway.
Regarding orgasm to images of men, you said earlier that your orgasms to men only happen when watching pornography, right? If you cut the pornography out that should stop.
The question of your fantasies and your sexual desire is deeper, and as @Mno said, it takes patience and open-minded acceptance to really understand yourself here. Where you are living, in Lebanon, society is fairly conservative. That is a complex place to grow up, sexually.
The A Project, in Lebanon, is a hotline that serves to answer questions about sex and sexuality, honestly and anonymously. It is mostly aimed at women, but it serves men as well (including men in your situation). Donāt be ashamed - call and ask and you will get some good advice:
You are asking good questions. I would say - right now you seem scared. Thatās understandable. Try to understand why youāre scared, and what is scaring you. It might take some time. Be patient with yourself, and try to keep an open, kind mind. It will help you find your way through this.
Take care brother 
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Youāll have to find out for yourself friend but honestly I donāt think life works like that. Feelings are feelings and they are not just destroyed like that. Not watching any porn seems like a good idea to me, that way you are sure your thoughts and fantasies are your own. And not put in there by the porn you are watching.
I can only speak for myself. I was 16 in 1982/83 there was no internet and we didnāt have video at home. The only way to watch porn was to go to a porn movie theater. I never went into one of those so no, I didnāt watch any porn back then. There was some porn magazines I very seldom saw but I preferred straight porn magazines.
My (sexual and non sexual) feelings for men come from myself. I am 100% sure of that. The guys I grew up with in my street they used to brag about how they went into the park at night to a place where gay men met and rob and beat them up. Thatās one of the reasons I hid my feelings from the world. To ādestroyā them as you say. It didnāt work. For me it was living in a lie and it made my life so unhappy. This was such a big part of my life that I could share with nobody, not even with myself because I denied it was there. Just like you are doing now. I know how bloody hard it is. Take care of your heart friend.
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bro can u send me your whatsapp number so we can talk more since you have a good experience and i need someone anonymous like you pls
I did the same at 16. Our brains/body are still figuring things out. I was watching guy on webcams too. Did that make my gay or bi? I donāt know. But, im married to a woman and 2 kids. I donāt watch gay porn because Iām not into it. Dont dwell on it.
I watch alot of movies/documentaries on serial killers. Just something that interests me. Does it me itāll turn me into one. I donāt think so. Iād like to hope it doesnāt.
so ur not gay anymore ? i mean u got rid of the gay part of you and now have a family!! because i like girls too and love to have family thats why i have hope that ill lose thus small gay part or sexual gay part iam better than ithers that just like boys