Tis been a shit show my friend. OMG that the guy running for governor’s commercial just came on. Ugh, I hate it. The one where he’s yelling about women keeping their skirts down if they don’t want to get pregnant and no woman should ever ever have an abortion no matter the reason. Sicko, I want to punch him in the face.
Sorry, I was looking at my pics to upload and he came on. gross… OK, here are some pics from the accident. It was the night of Ava’s high school graduation 
I was driving my Mom’s SUV, ironically enough, we had just finally got my mom to agree to stop driving. I let her have it, she’s been crashing into everything lol. She said my trigger words (from when I lived in Florida) “I don’t want to lose my freedom”… OK, so go kill a young person with their whole life ahead of them who will never get to say that. Ma’am, get you an uber. So, it kinda worked out, because as you can see the car is totaled. I have no idea how many times I flipped, I just remember closing my eyes and waiting for it to be over, the next thing I remember is some men trying to help me because I was suspended upside down. Then, I look to my right and Littles popped up like nothing happened, not a scratch on her, I’m tearing up right now. If she got hurt I would just die. Poor little thing was like a tennis ball in a dryer. I will tell you the absolute worst worst worst part after the pics, if my PTSD from cops wasn’t bad enough, ayyyyyy
OK, so this is out in the sticks and there are no street lights and it’s the kind of roads with a steep lip and then ditches on both sides. I’ve always been scared to drive out there, and I’ve never drove out there at night before. Everyone out there drives with their brights on and they don’t turn them off for oncoming traffic, so you obviously get blinded, but I veer to the right for some reason, like I’m afraid they are going to hit me because I can’t see for shit, and I don’t have any idea how big the oncoming vehicle is. So, my worst fear came true, I hit that lip and a rolling I went. Ava got to me so quickly. I had missed my turn because it was so dark and I had no clue where the heck I was because it’s so dark out there.
So, the doors are open because my side was crushed. The guys couldn’t get me out, so I unclipped my seatbelt like a boss, fell on my head, and crawled out with littles. I got hit in the face with one airbag and the side of my head with the other. I’m doing my best to hide the blood because I don’t have insurance and I was refusing medical help. I found out later that the car insurance covers it.
When the cops show up, this one asks me if I had been drinking. I said no, I don’t drink. He’s like are you on anything, and I’m like no. So then he asks my daughter if I had been drinking and she goes my mom never drinks. Is your mom on anything, “no”…
So, he starts the field sobriety test, mind you I’m dazed AF, see that car? I was not given a breathalyzer test. I did the field sobriety stuff fine except for the heel to toe walking on a line. I explained to him that I was disabled, I have neuropathy which causes ataxia and for the rest of my life, I will never be able to perform that test. I would be more than happy to show you my medical records since they are on my portal and I could pull them right up on my phone. He refused to look at them. So I kept telling him I was not going to be able to do it, please just let me show you my medical records, nope. Even worse, there was a handicap placard hanging from the rearview mirror that he ignored!!!
He handcuffed me and arrested me for DWI and reckless driving to endanger. I swear I was so polite to this guy because I’m so afraid of cops. He took me to the station and they took my blood. I said, once that comes back negative are you going to drop the charges? and he said “possibly, you’re still going to have to go to court though” ugh.
I am so devastated over this. This is now my second time being falsely arrested. If I can find an attorney to take it on a contingency basis, I’m suing this time. I cried for days, it was horrible. I can’t believe how such a lovely day turned into that. I was only at the police station for like 30 minutes and then Ava took me home. I can’t explain the emotional turmoil I was going through. I can’t explain it, but it just felt so dark
So, I have made a million calls to find out who to speak with. Turns out the guy was a state trooper. So, I called the highway patrol and told the lady on the phone the story and she asked for the officer’s name. When I gave it to her, I could swear her voice changed like “not him again”. So, she is talking to I forget who, like the boss cop guy and is supposed to get back to me. I was requesting to have the charges dropped. So, fingers crossed they will work with me. I literally cannot believe this happened. OMG, I walked away for a second and forgot I was in the middle of this, I haven’t taken my meds yet lol.
Other than that, all is good for the most part. I’m learning about neuroplasticity and manifestation from a chick I found on youtube, she’s awesome, Dr. Tara Swart. So, I’m thinking more positively. As for the highway patrol, I’ll circle back around by tomorrow if I don’t hear back. I also have to get like one of those free defense attorneys, or I could be a rebel and defend myself. I have many google degrees. I will go ahead and become a google criminal defense attorney. I object, hearsay, lacks foundation, speculation. See, I’m ready lol
So I frantically ran outside to save him, but when I got outside it was a crazy maze of mall parking lots and unfamiliar buildings 
I got lost and looked forever and never found him. Ugh, that’s all I remember.
I’m enjoying it though.
