being able to manage stuff with a clear mind (electricity and internet connection for the new apartment, 2 helpers for the move, decluttering, ebay, cooking,…)
this loveley latesummer
my meals today, good food
distance from the man that wasn’t good at all to me and reflecting about what happened
feeling good on my own, that’s realy kind of new and I just love it
Ahw… And quitting my job!
Best decision ever… It’s nearly 8 weeks and I start to c clearer and feel healthier.
I am grateful the day is over.
I am grateful I realize some things.
I am grateful for the nice weather.
I am grateful for a loooong weekend and well a short week next week.
I am grateful I have enough.
Grateful I had a nice day off yesterday and spent time visiting with family.
Grateful I was able to catch up on some journaling.
Grateful for the beautiful sunrise right now.
Grateful for the daily necessities: food, clothing, shelter, etc.
Grateful just to be alive and still sober, too.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am for the upcoming long weekend.
I am grateful there is nothing on my plan at work today other than paperwork.
I am grateful I finally found a good adapter for my phone on my bike.
I am grateful people are nice in general.
The opportunity to “carry the message to the addict/alcoholic who still suffers.”
And I literally was, while typing this out. A guy sat down next to me asking for fetty and I told him, “I’m in recovery,” and he started asking me questions about how I did it and what he might be able to do. So, I shared my truth. And that felt really good. Because I didn’t come at him with any b.s. or acting like I was better; I came to him like a real person who cares because I am, he is and I DO care. And I owe ALL of that to other people who gave freely to me of the message and hope.
Yes, the original rock badass gal. I’ve seen her perform dry and dress and 6ft Queenie and she’s still so goodddddd. She’s not very people pleasey though and super/hyper focused on the now, so you are lucky if she ever plays old (90s) tunes… it happens though
She’s the only person of any gender to win two Mercury prizes. Yeah, I’m a fangirl…
Celebrating our daughter Èvas birthday yesterday. She would have been 4. Its not an easy day to navigate, I often feel a bit unrooted and unsure what to expect. My oldest is 7, Èva was her little sister and yesterday she cried really hard. I was able to be there. She saw the pictures of her sister in the hospital for the first time, and though 7 is maybe a bit old for some kids to know about cremation we knew she was too young at 3 and then just didnt talk about it. She was asking about the box in our cabinet, so I got to tell her. It was the day it was supposed to be.
Step 4 or a process in and around there & therapy - I am ready now, I believe to address my anger. Glad that there are ways to address my big feelings.
The sun that shines.
The new adventures in life…making water kefir, kombucha, fire cider, getting started on beading and thinking about book keeping and maybe even working in a daycare. Sonetimes it is scary not knowing what life will bring. Sometimes its exciting too.
Amends - I got frustrated when speaking with someone the other day. In my defense, the situation is INSANE and I find this person triggering. Not in my defense: it is not this persons fault what is happening. They are trying to do their job and also trying to help. Their job is VERY difficult. People do not have to be perfectly articulat in emotional language for you to respect them and keep your own emptions in check. I am navigating how to fight for my nephew, while not becoming overly aggressive - its a FINE FUCKING LINE. I have apologized for becoming frustrated before, and this recent frustration was being blindsided again. Regardless, I have reached out to apologize AND also asked my husband to step in to be the one to speak to this person at CPS. Not just for me, but for this person as well. I know I may not be able to keep my balance, I am up on the hill I will die on - but I do not want to cause anyone else harm while up here. Amends isnt just saying sorry, but taking action. I hope this route helps solve some of the tension…heres to making a change. Xo.
Oh Mira - yesterday was a emotional day for you. I’m grateful that you are here with us and sharing. Happy belated birthday to your dear Eva. I am sure she is with you always
Grateful for a restful night’s sleep.
Grateful my day is going smoothly so far.
Grateful my wife and I both have the day off tomorrow.
Grateful for funny videos on YouTube.
Grateful for solitude when I’m on the road.
I am grateful to be sober.
I am grateful it’s Friday.
I am grateful there is no dog poop on the streets here.
I am grateful I got my bike pedals changed yesterday.
I am I have enough.