You fell down, it’s a learning experience. Pick yourself up and dust yourself off. Write down what you noticed: what was the sequence of thoughts that I followed when I decided to drink? You will see the pattern. You can use this as a chance to change a few things about your life & introduce new thinking and a different routine.
Do you have a recovery group you are a member of? For most people recovery groups are very important for their sobriety. There are many options (including many that have online options) - here are a few:
Online meeting resources
And more here:
Resources for our recovery
Keep an open mind, reach out, connect, listen humbly and, when you can, share your experience. Never, ever give up. (Also: Recovery is the most rewarding thing you will ever do. But it is not an easy path. As the old saying goes, it is simple, but not easy. You are being tested by life. You can choose to stay sober. But you have to want it - more than anything else. How much do you want it? I don’t mean to be discouraging saying this. But I mean you are going to have to do things you never thought you’d do. For myself I didn’t achieve lasting sobriety until I physically brought myself to a sex addiction recovery clinic. That took a lot of commitment because of the stigma. But I would do it again in a heartbeat. You should expect that recovery will stretch you more than ever before. Get comfortable in uncomfortable or unexpected places & thoughts - and I promise you’ll get there.)