You need to do what works for you right now, I get that. I don’t do AA either, tho it works for some. We need to remember that the world of recovery and science has grown since AA was founded in 1935. There are many more options for us now.
There are other modalities, not just AA/12 Step, such as SMART, Women for Sobriety, LifeRing, SOS, among others.
There are rehab facilities that take a variety of approaches to recovery.
There are medications such as Acamprosate, Naltrexone, Disulfiram and others.
Holistic therapies…exercise, vitamin therapy, yoga and meditation, mindfullness, acupuncture, etc.
Apps like this one Sober Time (the best IMHO) or Sober Grid or reddit r/stopdrinking.
There are online groups…She Recovers, Soberistas, Hip Sobriety, Hello Sunday Morning, Living Sober, The Naked Mind.
There are books and memoirs to give you inspiration and tools for your toolbox. The Naked Mind, The Big Book, Healing the Addicted Brain, Allen Carr’s book and many more …here is a good thread on books to read… (Sobriety reading)
There are so many tools to help us in sobriety.
ONE SIZE DOES NOT FIT ALL.
We all need to follow our own path, which is rarely straight or straightforward. It is a journey some of us take on our own, some with community, some with online community. The point is to get healthy and sober and figure out how YOU stay sober and heal yourself.
Try whatever you have to to find the combination that heals your tired body, mind and soul.