I have ambitions and then I don’t do them. I try and keep my goals loose for that reason. I have a copy of this printed out and on a notice board at home. I find it helpful.
‘Find a routine baggy enough to live in’
I was talking to my bf about routines the other day, it sparks my feelings of failure when I don’t stick to them. I have built a massive resistance to them now because I have convinced myself I can’t do a routine. Maybe that’s what I need at the moment, maybe not.
It’s getting that mix of going with the flow and responding to what you need, and cultivating habits and behaviours that make you feel good.
I bet you have done some of those things, some of the time? I know from my list, I don’t tick all the things off there every day. Some days I do none of them. Some days I do some of them. Occasionally I hit all of them, but that is the exception rather than the rule!
Also, I had a reflection on a yoga practice last night which I think is relevant here. We can’t become someone different but we can become the person we are meant to be - our healthy habits and behaviours need to be things that work towards that, not against it. Sometimes it’s easier to see who that person is than others! 
