Welcome Kady! You’re in the right place. Lots of good threads here for people recovering from alcohol - search or scroll and I’m sure you’ll find a bunch.
There’s a checkin thread which is a great place to catch up with everyone:
https://talkingsober.com/t/checking-in-daily-to-maintain-focus-38/134419/1790
And there’s this thread which is great for learning about your recovery (podcasts, books, groups):
And if you want some meetings online there’s a thread about that too!
You are not alone. Remember: don’t give up. You are a good person and you deserve a safe, sober life where you can be your full self 