It sounds that whatever you have been trying for over a year is simply not enough to get sober and get into recovery. Sounds like you need to take it up a few gears.
Pick three resources, meetings or this place daily should be amongst them, truly work through some books ans podcasts, then pick new ones.
Surround yourself w recovery content and ppl in recovery 24/7 and rebuild that connection w yourself. Work on what you are drinking at, to escape from or “help with” in your life. Identify, then begin to change these things.
Best of luck.