This doesn’t happen every night, but it has happened a few times in the past week. The dreams are very vivid. I feel so horrible in them after I take a few drinks. I don’t know if this is normal or not, maybe they’re based on my own fears…
I’m 92 days sober, and I know this in my dreams as well. When I realize I’m starting over, I get this overwhelming sense of dread. I think of all the people I’ve let down. Last night, I even remember counting how much I drank to try and figure out if it was just a lapse or a relapse…silly, I know, but these dreams seem to be happening more regularly.
Completely normal! When I first started having the dreams I was ashamed and felt guilty. I would wake up freaking out that I had relapsed until I was a little more conscious. My sponsor described it to me as still fighting your alcoholism in your sleep. There is always going to be a healthy fear of relapsing if you’re serious about your recovery. Congratulations on your 92 days! Keep going, I promise it only gets better. It’s not always easy, but it’s always worth it
I’m 358 days sober and had 2 relapse dreams this week, think it’s as I’m getting close to a year, they had eased off, but the year is in my mind a lot, I’m really excited to make it. It’s a horrible feeling in the dream feeling the guilt shame and remorse again, but such a relief and motivation when I waken. They make us stronger and remind us why we are doing what we’re doing.
I’m 19 days sober and had one of those dreams last week. It’s so unsettling, I can completely relate. Sometimes I even wake up not feeling great, with a headache and have to really think about if I drank the night before or if I’m just dehydrated from the night. This actually happens a lot more than the dreams, it’s equally frustrating.
I had a few relapse dreams the first 3 months. Now when I have been sober for 9,5 months I get them regularly and they are more vivid and nightmare like. I know I would never drink again and ruin my sobriety. Very scary and I feel so much guilt afterwards for even dreaming about relapse.