I am really glad you went for it!! And I saw she asked you out for coffee??
Ive been listening to Brene Browns podcasts about vulnerability the past few days and you are what she calls “daring greatly.”
So whether this pans out in your favor or not, at least above all else you will know that you said and did everything you needed to… the world needs more vulnerability and authenticity, so way to go!!
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I appreciate your concern @Meggers and yes I have changed that much and I do love myself. During my stay at the treatment center we would do 4 groups a day and I worked my ass off in trauma therapy as well. I am no where near the person I was and I’m so grateful. I appreciate your concern.
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Oh and in regards to the romance novel @Meggers, it absolutely is. I took a chance and followed my heart and she and I went out to dinner tonight and healed all of the pain we both were going through for the last 4 months. Today was the day that we were going to get married and how fucking beautiful is it that Gods timing was so perfect that she prayed yesterday for me, it came through in a song at a store that made me say fuck it I’m gonna go for it. We are back together now and she is the love of my life and I am hers. If I didn’t love myself I wouldn’t have worked so hard to be who I’ve become. And if I hadn’t been who I’ve become there is no way any of this would’ve been possible. God brought us back together at the exact perfect time through a song that only had a special meaning to her and I so fuck yeah I’m grateful I reached out, I would’ve never known if I hadn’t tried. Love and music are so powerful ESPECIALLY when orchestrated by God. Love you guys have an amazing night!!! 
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Thank you so much @Clarity it was the right choice to reach out to her. We sat and talked for the first time in so long and there were so many tears of happiness. We were both thinking if it was meant to be it would happen in Gods time and it did! He played that song at that particular time so it would move my heart enough that I would reach out and trust Him and I did. Faith and I are officially back together and stronger than we were before. I love everyone that’s been there for me thank you so much!!!
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Although I agree with @Meggers and @Sober_Ninja. I certainly wish you and her all the best. But for now maybe keep your sobriety first and foremost. Don’t let that addiction brain fuck you over man. Addiction brain is very strong. I sincerely hope the 2 of you can work it out. It certainly could have been a sign from God. Good luck. And all the best.
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Thank you Eric I appreciate you very much. I have to keep my recovery first or I’ll lose myself again and I never want to feel that again. Goodnight my friend thank you:sunglasses:
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@undercoverkuscheltie we never fell OUT of love that’s the thing. I was very sick in my disease and going lower. I couldn’t stop using and she couldn’t watch me die anymore. She had to protect herself and I don’t blame her one bit. Have an awesome night I appreciate you!
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Echoing what others have said. Really love yourself first and i dont see contacting anyone fucking up. Especially if its a positive message. Also i find writing to people really therapeutic and you don’t always have to send what you wrote!
Stay strong. You come first
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So everything is as it should be. Check out what I saw on Facebook today this will be my last post on this thread. God is rad!!!
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I’m glad things have worked out as they have. Yes, love is blind and everyone is wanting to make sure you don’t get hurt. No-one knows how this novel will end. BUT you have taken positive action, which you were nervous of at first and it is only because of your sobriety that you have got to this point. Never forget that. Never lose that or you will lose everything. Best wishes and prayers for your future. 
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That’s awesome @Piglet thank you so much! Recovery first absolutely right, I’ve seen what happens when I lose focus. Have a great night Graham thank you again!
So you didn’t fuck up. The reborn you took a chance knowing you’re sober and stronger. Yes. That’s the way it should be. Good luck to you. I hope and pray it works out the way both of you want. A grand romantic gesture indeed!
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Awww thank you @Figgie for sure! So many of the amazing things that have happened is because I trusted and took a shot at something. I’m soooo blessed to be sober and to have a miracle like this happen??? Priceless… I thank God that I have her back in my life. Thank you so much for your support. Have a great night!!!
I had something similar happen to me my boyfriend who was my ex at the time came back into my life when I was diagnosed with cirrhosis- he stayed by my side through the worst of it…through detox…all of it and we ended up getting back together. This was two years ago. I think it’s different when it’s an ex over someone new…this girl knows you. You have a history. Learn from one another & always continue to grow. It was an absolute blessing in disguise that that happened to me and I am grateful every single day…There is no such thing as coincidences. Very happy for you my friend
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Thank you very much @mleclaire I’m glad everything worked out for you too. Have a great day today!!!
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In my opinion you’ll never regret letting someone know how you feel. That being said, if she doesn’t feel the same or is in a relationship then “let well enough alone.” Say your piece and then let it be. You cannot worry yourself over things outside of your control. Take a deep breath.
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Welcome to the community hope your hAving a blessed day…
Congrats man super stoked everything worked out as it did your way
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I did the same thing a year ago… but before getting sober… I never spoke to u but read this and thought I’d just share that I can relate in how u may have been feeling in that moment. Feelings dont just disappear. They dont just go away… Regardless of what happens, just focus on u and ur sobriety. Everything else will work out
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