Sorry to hear that. Sending you a hug and strength. Things might feel really bad right now, but they will get better. Always a better day ahead. when your feeling low chat here or talk to someone close to you. Or try a zoom meeting, they are great to talk or listen. Your a lot braver than you think and sharing your story shows that. Just know your not alone and I hope things feel better for you soon
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Let us be your strength. Let us carry the burden. Let us carry you through this hard time. We are here for you. Together we are strong when you feel weak.
You are cared for. You are loved. You matter.
I’m logging off for some hours.
Please be here … please do not harm yourself.
Do not kill yourself.
Hugs.
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Well the fact that you feel bad just proves that you know it was wrong and therefore at least you aren’t a sociopath
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I’m alive but I’m so sorry I wasn’t able to keep my word about harming myself, I broke i didn’t know what to do, I broke my one year record out of something stupid but I really tried, I swear I did I’m sorry for being a failure.
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You did not kill yourself , I am grateful for that. Sorry you harmed yourself. You can go forward. You are not a failure.
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Glad your still here, youre not a failure u did what you did out of desperation and pain
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I feel bad for doing what I did
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Doesn’t help but make me feel like I have failed, I broken my 1 year clean
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You survived and that’s what’s most important.
I think you feel comfortable in this community. It might be helpful for you to be here more.
There’s people here to talk to and interact with.
People who care about your well being, how you are doing, how you are coping.
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I reached out because I was hoping that I would find people to that are willing to help me out, this community is very supportive and helpful. Thank you for everything, I’m doing alright I have survived another day even though I’m so tired my body is so weak, I tried to get some sleep but that didn’t work. I’m just so tired Alisa really tired, I have no strength.
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I hope you can eat something. When it seems impossible to sleep a good thing for me to do is to just close my eyes and think about something pleasant instead of the intrusive upsetting thoughts. Also I try to close my eyes and just relax without putting the burden on me to sleep. Taking sleep out of the equation lessens my anxiety and I find that even if I do not sleep I feel a little more rested. I hope with some food and rest you will start getting strength back.
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I’m getting ready for work atm, I didn’t get good sleep if you can call it that, I’m emotionally exhausted mentally drained and physically in pain. I am trying all I can to keep fighting.
I hope I can get some work done today and not be useless like I was yesterday, eventhough I am feeling so out of energy to do anything. Sleep sounds nice I want that.
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Hi. I am late to the conversation, but I’m another voice out there telling you that you’re brave and wonderful and so worth this fight. I am so sorry you are feeling such pain. I am sorry that encounter with the man pushed you over the edge. Please listen to our voices and not his. You are struggling. You are hurt. But you are strong and you can heal. Please keep posting so that our voices can drown out the others. You matter and we want you to find peace and happiness and comfort with your true, magnificent self.
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Please dont hurt yourself. Ive struggled with suicidal thoughts/survived attempts, and I just lost a friend last week to suicide. Please hang in there. Sounds like youve made some mistakes, but that happens. You can always learn from those and become a better person for it. I know you must be in so much pain right now, i hear you, life fucking sucks sometimes. But please, hang in there. Do it for yourself, so that a year down the line youll look at the life you made for yourself and youll be so glad to still be here. Just take it one day at a time. Youve survived all your worst days so far, keep it up. I hope you can connect with a professional soon who can help in more ways than some friendly people online.
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You are not late, you are always welcome to join and thank you that you did, I’m trying so hard to keep my fight and to continue this but it’s just getting harder and harder.
What he did was the cherry on top of all what I’m am dealing with, it’s not easy being only a sexual object and not a friend and it’s not easy dealing with being misgendered, that was what cause the bottle neck to break and cause this emotional mess.
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I did end up hurting myself and breaking my clean date of one year, I feel gutted and disappointed with myself for letting myself and other people down.
I know I’ve made a mistake that I can’t forgive myself for just like not being able to help my soulmate before he took his own life, I don’t want to put people throught the hurt if I take my life even though I really want too, it feels like the right thing to do.
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I don’t have the right words to say in this moment. But i am sending you a 
I have been where you are now, however I’ve never gotten to a full year without SH so I am proud of you! Even if you stumbled, you are still here and able to try again! Sending lots of 
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Thank you for your kind words.
I’m trying so hard not to fall back again, I know I fell back but I’m really trying to recover from this relapse without letting the guilt.
Thank you again.
I’m going to try and keep fighting even though it’s really hard right now.
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Hi there. Checking in and seeing how you are feeling today. 
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