Hey Cat and welcome to this forum! You already got some wise words and I don’t have much more to add, only want to welcome and encourage you to spend a lot of time on here. Read all the success stories, stories of sad depressed embarrassing heartbroken people like yourself (and me!) who got sober, got back in touch with the good in themselves and turned their lives around. There is hope for you. You can become a happier, healthier, more hopeful person! You also have four little ones who do not deserve to remember their mum unhappy and absent during their childhood! It should be a great incentive for you to send them off into their lives with better cards than you had, watching your dad be a drunk.
There is hope for you! For all of us here!
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Welcome to the forum! 2021 edition 