Okay I’ll start with the start of my current position.
I’m 18 years only and I’ve done many regretful drugs. Some of which I would remember if it weren’t for the people around me. Herion, acid, methamphetamine, Crack, speed, cocain, Marijuana, oil, shader, pharmaceuticals, shrooms, and that’s all I can remember right now. See after years of abusing my body is tend to forget important things. Like why I’m admitting to all my failures.
Now I guess it’s time for so personal things.
I’ve been in cfs since I was 4 years old. Only because my foster went to jail for attempted murder. On my mother, myself and two of my younger brothers. That and the fact that I was born into a family know for drug trafficking and most obvious… being a very violently unpredictable gang.
Yeah I didn’t have such a great start in life but hey I’m not dead yet. Obviously I don’t blame my parents for what I’ve done. Cuz in the end it was my choice to follow there footsteps. Well the parts I know Cuz I haven’t seen the since cfs showed up.
Back to the addictions part.
I’ve tried Marijuana at 8, cocain at 11, and all the rest at 15. I think I really don’t remember much. Also I know is I have needle markings everywhere, my body is constantly in pain, and my skin is noticeable a grayish colour.
On top of all that I’m losing my eye sight. I have crossed bi-polar with unipolar depression. Uncontrollable anger issues and I very strange version of d.i.d. so I have alternating personality. 6 to be specific. And while ones " in the light" it’s opposite acts that of its conscious. Each alter is intensity attached to a emotion or deep feeling from post trauma. For example right now it sensitive and anger. I really do appreciate one have but apparently I have to f****** write about my feelings. I don’t know if I’m around to do that but it’s my introduction of my life and that how I feel.
Anyways that’s just about the shortest version of my story and my struggles.
To those who read all of it**