Hi, my name is Ana, I’m 26 and live in Zagreb, Croatia.
I’ve been drinking since I was 14, and I’m a social drinker without any self-control, leading to many embarassing situations. I know my main problem is my emotional state and drinking sort of helps me forget about my problems (which are many and are growing with time), but instead of resolving them, I start drinking. I don’t drink all the time, but when I do I make a fool of myself every time.
I am a person that tries to establish a certain place in society at the moment, but my drunk talking is going to destroy me. When drunk I have no rules, I insult everybody and pretend that I’m the most qualified person in everything I do, which is soooooo far from the truth. I am super low on self-esteem, I am still at university because of my laziness, and even though I exceed at my part time jobs, I’m affraid my drunken mouth will be my downfall.
I have friends who were the same as me in our teenage years but have since grown out of the phase, while I still am the same, or even worse and their patience is decreasing. It has even resulted in situations where I’m not even invited to go out with them anymore. And when I finally do go out it turns out a disaster.
I know I must stop, I’ve known for the past 5 years, but I just can’t help myself.