I have read and understand the rules and I will follow them to the best of my ability. Hello! My name is Curtis Ellis, and though my story is different, it does have one thing in common with many of you, my use of alcohol. I thank God for where I am today and have been clean since 5 Jan 2015. I took some time away from many things that I could use as a “trigger” and though I found myself, I lost many “friends and acquaintances”. No worries about that though, and I really like where I am and my control over my life now. I will admit that, for the most part, I do spend a lot of time alone, but I’m ok with that. I’ve finally gotten my life together, paid off the cost of TWO DUI’s (lost my driving privileges for a year, jail time and did the interlock device for 1 year). And? Here’s where things are beginning to change for me. I spent a little over two years cleaning myself up and was fortunate enough to keep my job after the second DUI, and now that I’m no longer under water and I’m breathing easy, I do find myself missing the life… Not the drinking, but association of activities from drinking… Crazy, huh? I’ve found myself thinking about this a lot, thus the reason I decided to join this site to be able to express myself and get encouragement when needed. I don’t plan on drinking again, but I also know that those plans can easily turn into “famous last words”. I did visit one of my old hang outs, the VFW here in town (I’m a retired USAF Master Sergeant and a member there) and was shocked a bit. Most people I had drank a lot with didn’t know how to take me now, and after they had a few (diet coke for me), I couldn’t believe that’s the way I use to act. And the smell! (since I quit drinking, I didn’t have a reason to smoke, so that went away as well, 2 years this month). Was this what I was missing? Needless to say I don’t go there much, especially after hearing “you were more fun when you were drinking…” (from an ex-something… the relationship was always centered on alcohol, so I’m not sure what it was…) No, I didn’t let it bother me as this was after they had had a few. So, I keep myself busy with work, gym, mountain biking and various hobbies, to include my 10 rats! LOL! Anyway, that’s me, and if anyone has any questions for me, please feel free to ask.