No clue if I’m doing this right… but here I go.
My name is Sky and I’m 28. I’ve been sober since May 18th '17. I’ve been struggling with alcohol, cannabis and cocaine… but I took anything that was being offered really.
I grew up in Northern Europe with my alcoholic mother and a dad with a mental problem. I also have six other sisters. If it wasn’t for them… I probably wouldn’t had lived throught my childhood.
I never wanted to drink, I never wanted to be like my mom. But I found something instead, cannabis… my mom never smoked weed so I thought I was golden. I guess you can figure out that everything went downhill after that. I started drinking and doing other drugs.
I’ve tried to be sober few times before, but never bothered working for it and this time something has changed… I admitted I had a problem to everybody I know, and more importantly, I admitted it to myself. I’ve been going on meetings twice a day and I bought the AA book and I read in it every night.
This time sure is different, I feel positive, I’m happy and I believe I have a good thing going here .I actually enjoy doing healthy things, things I couldn’t enjoy before. It’s been a full-time job being sober, I can’t deny it, and it’s been hard, but when I look back… being out there was so much harder.
I realize now that this disease I have is predictable… I can stay two steps ahead of it if I do what I have to do, if I don’t… it’ll catch me and I’m out there again.
Anyway, sorry for the long post. Thank you so much for this community and I’m really happy to be here with all of you.