Hi I’m new to this, I’m 37 I have a drink problem, I drink about twice a week and it’s a minimum of 2 bottles of wine each time, my last episode has left me with cuncusion and a pretty bruised up face, I have tried getting help from doctors and agencies but I’m not seen as needing the help. I’m married and my husband is not a drinker and has to endure so much. We have two young children and I love them very much, I’m ruining the relationship I have with them and many a time I wanted to be dead than living through this hell of alcohol abuse
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Hi, my name is Carlynn. I live in Missouri. I’m 30 years old, and have 2 kids ages 10 and 6. I’m a stay at home mother. My significant other of 3 years works 40 to 50 hours a week. I started doing meth when I was 17, and did it pretty heavily until I was 7 months pregnant with my first child. I was living in a homeless shelter when I decided it was time for a change. I moved states, quit using drugs and went back to school. I stayed clean for over 4 years. But… then I moved back to the same town I lived in before. Hooked up with old friends, started using again, ended up pregnant again. I’ve been using off and on ever since. Sometimes I’d get really bad on it and it’d become my main focus in life. Sometimes I’d go weeks or months without touching it. When I met my SO he had no idea I was doing drugs. When he found out I told him I quit, but I lied. I kept lying and kept using for months. He’d find out, and I’d promise to quit each time. Eventually he decided he wanted to try it, because he wanted to know what I was dealing with. The addict in me convinced me this was a great idea. Now he’s addicted too. After a few months of us using pretty heavily together, we decided to quit. I was ready. He was not. He struggled with it for months until he finally broke down. I agreed we could use again, but only rarely, and there had to be rules. We could be only occasional users, right? Wrong. Cue us using every weekend straight for 6 months now. Cue us fighting about it every weekend, how much to get, when to stop, etc. Finally things culminated in me saying " F*ck you" to him for the first time ever in our relationship. What followed was an awful, horrible fight. We realized how stupid we were being. We are now both committed to quitting. It was ruining our lives and our relationship with eachother. Nothing is as important to me as he is, especially not a drug. So, here I am. Day 1. Again. Trying something new. Reaching out to others, because I refuse to fail again. I’m tired of being an absentee parent. I’m tired of fighting with my SO about something so stupid. I’m tired of making myself so sick and depressed. So… yeah. That’s my story. :
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Welcome! This is a really great community here. You’ll find the people here very helpful and friendly. It’s good you are both willing to work on your addictions. Best of luck!
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Hi!! I am Thomas from Spain and grateful to be here.
I am 42 and dealing with Porn and Masturbation addiction since I was 13 years old.
With 7 years old I saw my first porn magazine in home and that really screw me up.
I tried therapists and SA group.
I believe in Jesus and that makes my addiction more painful to me.
Today I am 4 days sober.
Thank you for being there
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Yeah, that makes it tough. I believe in Jesus as well. I’m Catholic, I go to church every Sunday, I pray everyday, but I also struggle with this issue. With God all things are possible. We can do this.
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Thanks brother! I am catholic too.union of prayer
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Hey there , i’m Daan and struggeling with alcohol for the last ten years and am sober for 22 days now. I am a 38 year old woman and hope to find a little bit of hope and strenght at this app . I struggle with the shame of addiction and myself. Today feels like a hard day.
Wish everybody strength and a very happy sober journey
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I’m sandy. I’ve been here before, shouldn’t have left. But I’m back and that’s what matters. Still struggling with day one. I slipped up tonight, so i reset my timer. I’m looking forward to making it an entire week.
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I also have this same addiction. You’re in good company. Search the threads, there are lots that are specific to our addiction. That being said, addiction is addiction and the principles of it apply across the board. You’ll find that drug abusers, alcoholics, food addicts, self-mutilators, and many others have incredible insight to what you’re going through and relate more than your realize.
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John, 31yrs old. Grew up in a party environment, great childhood but now in the process of learning new, less destructive habits. My addiction has prevented me from sustaining any meaningful relationships, not to mention the inebriated money pit I’ve contributed over 10yrs of disposable income.
Originally started drinking to slow down my mind and forget insecurities. My mind is slower, and for a time I forgot about my short comings. Achohol did exactly what I wanted, or what I thought I wanted. Been sober 3 days, trying to face issues head on, trust myself, live in the moment instead of being a slave to the mind and overthinking/overreacting.
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Huge accomplishment! Congrats, it is so much better for you being sober anyway, Avascular Necrosis or no.
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Baby steps. I use a lot of technology when it comes to my health. Myfitnesspal for calorie consumption tracking, Strava/Nike Running to track exercise, Samsung Health to track sleep patterns, weight, and as a pedometer. I’m a little overboard, but it helps me get an accurate idea of what I’m putting in and out of my body.
Are you working with a doctor?
Good for you! If your able to get into a pool, resistance is great for your bone density and takes the pressure off your joints.
Where are you from? Here in Central Washington it’s getting into the 80’s this week.
That sounds ideal! Keep us updated on your health goals. They’re inexplicably linked to your recovery!
Thanks. I am agree with you. I love this app and the people I am meeting.
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Omg…thats me!!! Spot on. This saturday i woke up in the afternoon wondering where the hell friday went. Total blackout but friends told me i was a complete jerk. (As always when i drink) i have no trouble not drinking today BUT i know the ‘hunger’ will show up again. Going to my first meeting tomorrow and actually looking forward to it.
My name is Sara, I’m 26. This is my first day sober. I decided it had to be done because I keep drinking to the point where I behave foolishly and hurt the people I love. I haven’t started any of the 12 steps. Making the choice to get sober was my own personal first step.
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Hi. I’m Justin. Im an alcoholic. 3 almost 4 days sober.
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