Ok so I’ve been reading through these and this is pretty fucking rad. I’d like to join too if it’s cool with you guys? Proud of the work you all are doing!
Well I’m doing it anyway
I would never want to change the way I am kind to others. I am naturally like that and have been told in the past that I was stupid or weak or a loser for being nice to people and also for forgiving others that have done wrong to me. I don’t think that it is a weakness at all now that I have done a lot of inner work but I do know now that I am starting to know my worth and love myself for the first time in my life, that it is necessary for me to set boundaries and possible limits to the amount of energy I put out and/or give to others. Love this thread thanks for making it!
I have two important things about myself that I would never want to change.
I would never want to change my love of learning. Being open-minded and having the willingness to change my personal beliefs keeps me growing.
I would never want to change my empathic nature. Although it’s brought anxiety, sadness, and other not-so-great emotions, it has also brought me understanding, open-mindedness, and joy.
Don’t know where your from but out here and where I graduated from ( Landmark Recovery ) they let people with one year of sobriety, have a career working there at the center and making some money while helping others in recovery….? Just a thought! stay loving yourself!
Feeling pretty tired and overstimulated yesterday and today. I’ll try to pop back later today and catch up with my responses.
@Rockstar24777 heck yeah Rob happy to have you join!
How have I neglected myself recently?
Withholding thoughts and feelings as a misguided way to protect myself and others.
What’s one way I can make it up to myself today?
Start to share my feelings and state of mind with the people I love. Have one vulnerable conversation.
Thank you Jess!
April 5th prompt.
I had been neglecting myself physically for awhile and was feeling lethargic, depressed and hopeless. I just started at the gym about 10 days ago and I feel so much better already. One small way I make it up to myself is by going no matter what, even if it’s for a half hour the act of following through brings me joy!
I’ve neglected myself recently by saying “yes” to someone when it wasn’t what was best for me at the time.
I’m making it up to myself this evening by watching a movie and having some dark chocolate. I’m also preparing myself to say “no” if I need to next time.
I have neglected myself by accepting way too many invites out and not speaking up when I am in too much pain to participate. I am making it up to myself tonight by declining an invite out, by using my voice and explaining to said person how I have overdone it this week and by having self compassion. I am still learning.
My self awareness. Even tho it hurts sometimes, I’m grateful to have the awareness I have
April 4th
I would not change my joy and passion that I have and that energizes me in so many small moments of my life (even though other people think I’m too much and try to shame me for it)
I was feeling kind of down earlier so I made a list of some things to cheer myself up
dance breaks in the middle of workouts, hula hooping in the rain, somersaults in the field, large chalk drawings of flowers all down my road, unexpectedly jumping into lakes, sprinting on my bike when I hit a gravel road and getting rocks to the teeth because I can’t stop smiling, squeaky wet shoes in the grocery store, singing along and dramatically serenading people with songs from the late 90s/early 2000s when they come on in retail spaces, using every city speed bump as a ramp to bunny hop my bicycle off of, wiggling bare toes in garden dirt, constantly carrying around and eating pickles, chasing and wrestling dogs, menu planning for camping trips and throwing in surprise treats
April 5th
I have neglected to do my gratitude journal for the past week and I have noticed myself getting too focused on negative things in my life without having gratitude in my day. So imma head over to the gratitude thread and share three things I’m grateful for in this moment.
Wow Jess I really LOVE all of those things that you mentioned, you’re super fucking cool How fun!!!
What a beautiful list!!! I instantly smiled… the rain, the squeaky shoes, the toes in the mud. I miss that lol how did u come up with this list? I feel like to think of such detailed memories or events, takes some real inner work. Idk. It’s beautiful and it makes me smile. Thank u for sharing this!!
Exactly what I felt too Dana! I think it’s so freaking rad and it made my heart smile too!!!
@Butterflymoonwoman @Rockstar24777
Thanks yall I’m glad I could share my joy with you.
This is just how my brain works. I have a lot of holes in my memory but the things I do remember are so vivid. The good and the bad unfortunately. If I can grab on to a certain feeling, memories come pouring out like this.
April 06
WNRS SELF-LOVE CARD PROMPT:
WHAT CAN I OFFER TO A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP THAT I’M MOST EXCITED TO GIVE?
I almost skipped this card and put it back but it relates to a goal I have in therapy so I’m curious to see how my answer may change in the future.
My answer is: nothing. Well hugs I guess is about the extent. I am not able to have romantic relationships. This is a big trauma area for me. I very recently realized that while I have been “in a relationship” with my current partner for the past 6 years, it has never really been romantic or intimate. Especially being sober it has gotten worse. I am good at forming close friendship type relationships but I avoid the rest. There’s a lot of things I need to work through in this area and appreciate the way my therapist was able to see this and help me to form goals to start working through it.
This is tough…idk…
I would be excited to show my true self and be able to feel comfortable enough and free enough to “expose” my true inner self.
I feel like there is always some sort of a barrier. It’s hardly there now but I don’t feel like I am showing my true inner self mainly bcuz I don’t know my true inner self YET. So I am excited to show this.
I also have 1 current goal related to my marriage right now. And I have no clue how to get there. It has to do with being intimate and being able to feel free and not be self conscious or not be “thinking” about only him and how to please him (that I am also involved in that act and that it is about a passionate physical connection btwn us both). This issue stems alot from working in the sex trade. My thinking is very distorted when it comes to sex and I don’t know how to not be this way. But I am excited to experience it for me and for us as a couple