Thatās where I am; having a hard time relaxing for some reason.
Iām sorry bro, me too. I hope you feel better soon 
Wow I havenāt felt this in awhileā¦ pretty down, sad, lonely and a little hurt I guess youād say. Iāll get to bed and it will pass, tomorrowās a new day. Goodnight I love you guys
Those days are hard. Had a few recently myself. Glad you are taking care of yourself. Feelings definitely come and go, if we allow them to. Sleep / rest is good stuff. Hope you wake in a better space.
Thank you @Astro and @SassyRocks i feel a little better this morning. It comes and goes and like you said I donāt fight it I just go with it. Thank you for the support!!!
Those times come. I have been feeling like that myself lately. Hang in there!!
Thank you @Kareness and you too!!!
I donāt know if many of you know this but every day is a choice to be here in this world. Some days are harder than others but itās definitely a choice i make daily. Some days like today doesnāt make a lot of sense why Iām still hanging out in this world. Holding on to the hope that one day Iāll be happy again gets fucking exhausting and every time I think I might, shit just falls through every fucking time. I definitely donāt believe in god anymore, found out that for myself it was just a sick twisted coping mechanism that allowed me to hope the Iād be ok someday but to me thereās nothing there at all. Anyway, Iām clearly having a tough time today and no amount of āitās going to be okā or āyou have a purpose little guyā is doing the trick and quite frankly Iām tired of lying to myself with shit like that. Itās not ok, I donāt feel like I have a purpose in my life, chances are Iām not going to be happy āone dayā and those are just facts and the way it is which is the way it is. Just dumping here because itās what I do when Iām in this headspace. Iām tired of being lonely, tired of being hopeful and positive, just fucking tired lol. Thanks for listening
You wont get a ābuck upā from me. Just know you arent alone in those struggles. After substantial sobriety it may just be a chemical imbalance in your body and may be worth discussing with a psychiatrist. No shame. I wish you some relief.
Weāre in this together Rob. Even if it is ājustā through this forum and even if it is with 1000ās of miles in physical distance. You help me by being here and sharing your stuff. The good as well as the shit. Youāre not alone. Hugs and love.
Thank you @Cjp i really appreciate it
Wow thank you Colin that means a lot brother, thank you so much for your kind words they hit me hard. Thank you so much and I love you too bro
Thank you so much Menno that means a lot to me too. Yes I guess here we share our good and out tough times, I reckon that makes us human right? Thank you for always being here for me though weāre so far apart, youāre always right there man and I appreciate you
It is a choice. Thanks for being here. Your post brought tears to my eyes. Iām going to carry you around in my heart today. I hope you feel it. 
Awwww thatās so freaking sweet of you, thank you Emilie so much