I had a meeting with my counselor today and we discussed about my financial issues. I don’t know why but money things always makes me anxious. Other than that I’m doing well, no weed withdrawals nor cravings.
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Damn thats truly amazing on financial moves
Change makes me super anxious
But sometimes its necessary and it could possibly turn out better
My wife would like to move out of Massachusetts one day
Im kinda iffy about it but the last time i made a change i was iffy about i moved in with inlaws and had a suprise baby and ended up making a 100% u turn on life
Its one day at a time
Sometimes two steps forward one step back repeat give or take
But its one day at a time
I was talking to my grandfather in law about my oded and passed best friend
Then i was talking about my streak off drugs and alcohol
In the beginning of sobriety its absolutely 100% not about a streak
Its about survival and building a life you accept
The only good thing about a streak is that it teaches you how to be sober during life situations as life goes on and you continue sobriety
Way back when
I was happy
I got sad
I drank
Now
Im happy
I get sad
I stay sober
I learn how to get through sadnness sober
This happeneds in a lot of shapes and forms through sobriety
You have financial anxiety
Your sober
You learned how to get through it sober
Now its build a life you like and accept
Ask yourself of the bar is too high or too low
Make moves from there
One goal at a time
One day at a time
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Thank you so much for your wise and insightful message! It really helped me.
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I feel like shit. I’m trying to sleep, but all I’m doing is going through all the mistakes I feel when I was wasted. My relationship with my kids is gone, I’m alone, sad and full of regret and shame. Why, oh why I have this disease. I know things will get better after stacking up the sober days, but right now I’m just a mess. I feel like I don’t have a future anymore, I feel like everything’s lost. I’m craving weed to numb myself but I know that would be a massive mistake. All I gotta do is survive another day sober. Fuck, I hate this disease which destroyed my life and I lost the contact to my children. I’m scared of what’s gonna happen next. Everything feels uncertain. I just wanna cry.
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Then cry! It washes the soul.
I’m living proof that reconciliation is possible between relatives; relationships that were estranged for years!
Some wounds take longer to stop hurting so badly before they can begin to start healing.
Keep hope that nothing lasts forever. Even this shitty feeling. It’ll pass. And when it does, you’ll have such an immense joy that you got through it sober!
And, nothing is ever wasted in life. Use it all as building blocks to use for the new and improved you!
Keep on swimming my friend! 
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Thank you so much. You’re right, no storm lasts forever. I’m going to be well although it doesn’t feel like that right now. I’m sad as hell for destroying my relationship with my kids.
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If there’s nothing you can do about reparations in this very moment: honor your sadness, then file it in the “to be dealt with later” folder, and do those healthy things that give you peace. Finish today strong and sober. Watch a movie or sitcom that you enjoy until you fall asleep, play online games until you’re too tired to keep playing and go to sleep, or make your favorite beverage and enjoy it while you wind down. Do something that reminds you that you are still wonderful, still worthy of love and sobriety, and you are a beloved son of God.
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Thank you. I’m currently listening to soothing music to calm me down before getting some sleep.
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I can relate to the pot withdrawal
I was very sad and confused
It was anger for me mostly
You dont need it man
But if you can feel the withdrawal its giving you, you might notice its difficult and the craving proovs its the weed youd want
But
First off the bad feeling and withdrawal will go away. It gets easier with time
Second weed backstabbed you just like it did me
The feelings weed is making you feel right now is negative. I told myself i hate it but i totally respect its power over me. The withdrawal sucks but weed is doing it to you
Drink lots of ice water
The water has to be cold
Very cold
Lots
Put a container in the fridge
Chug it but dont get sick and do it until the anxiety gets a little better. If you get sick the moment of ease will be worse ok
so just chug cold cold water until your content for that monent then repeat next time
Worth a try my friend
I do it till this day over 500days marijuana free
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Soothing music is great to unwind to
The cold water trick pretty much restarts your belly. 
Good luck
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@MrMoustache
Never over do it
If your uncomfortable its too much
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Thanks for the tip, guys!
5 AF, 5 weed free
This day has been depressed. I’m so sad that my kids doesn’t seem to like me anymore because I sent them very fucked up messages while being on benzos. I know our relationship will get better when they learn that I’m fully sober. But that doesn’t really help now. Sometimes I think being dead would be better, because I seem to only hurt people around me.
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I feel this and I am sorry 
I hope you can find some light in this life. It can hold tiny little moments of joy 
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Thank you, friend. The more sober I am, the more I can find joy. ODAAT.
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My dad took his life, 2 weeks after we had an argument. Trust me. You’re not better off dead. I wish I could have been more patient with him and his addiction. I wish I had done a lot of things differently.
As long as you’re alive, there is room for reconciliation. There’ll be room for apologies, explanations, and promises.
And yes, you will find joy again. This storm won’t last forever. They’ll be a rainbow at the end of it! 
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Sorry to hear about your dad. You’re right, life is precious and I will feel joy again. Thanks!
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I’m again at the psych ward because of suicidal tendencies. I’m just so fed up this thing called life which is nothing but misery. I have nothing left. My kids blocked me, two of my friends abandoned me, I’m totally alone which is fine. But I can’t find joy or satisfaction, I’m just numb, I can’t even cry anymore. Life is meaningless.
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I am so sorry, friend. And I am grateful you are at a safe place. Please let me tell you: You are precious as you are. I know you don’t feel that way right now . But nothing can take away that from you, as a human being, you are precious
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I’m so sorry to hear that you’re struggling this badly.
Allow this time to be one of receiving God’s peace and clarity. I pray that you meet Him there in a transformative way.
There’s nothing I can say that you won’t disbelieve. I know when I’m that suicidal, hope and reason seems to have abandoned me.
What I will add though is: this too shall pass.
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