Hugs back friend. Hope you slept/are sleeping some. Try not to be ashamed. Nobody’s life is ‘normal’. But I’ve always been wondering about that too.
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Thank you! Yeah, I guess it’s as an addicts feel that way. But as always, one day at time. I know that one day we feel “normal” again. Thanks again!
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Day 23 AF, 28 weed free
I’m guessing I slept alot. I’m happy that I’m here at psych ward where I can be safe. Nothing much to say, listening to music ans just chilling. That’s all I need right. Have a great 24 everyone! Peace and Love
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Heyyyyyy goodmorning from my homestate and country Massachusetts usa
This is how i tell myself how to feel safe when i worry
I ask myself
Did the sun come up?
If it did then i think ok so it is going to be ok
Then i ask myself if it didnt could i change that? The answer is no. I personally have no power in that. Why should i worry about something i cant control
Other then that
I be a good person
And only protect whats mine only if i need to. I could get beat up, ok big deal if i can just be after
But i do however protect my family and friends whoever and however that is.
I WILL NOT protect someone i dont know
I will however protect with all my might that i do love
Stranger doesnt mean bad
But it does mean i dont know
Friend means good because i do good too and im only friends with good
Friends mean i know. 
Other then all that
We are alive to live and personally find ourselves. I look at it like a lesson but in order to see this lesson you need to live, be a good person and find yourself whatever that may be to you
God is good but believe it or not i kinda dont have a personal god i worship
I worship (my higher power) a loving promise land
I dont know for sure though. Whos to say this is what it is. Not me. I cant proove it. This is just what i see and feel
My promise land is where i go after this life
All i personally THINK (thats all the proof i have) i need to do is live, be good, and find myself.
All in all
In this world we are in now it is dangerous unfortunately
The easiest time to live for a human and the world just wants to be like this. Cant control it so i just do me.
That being said we all just HAVE to be brave man
Your in the phyc ward
That is infact you being brave
A coward would distroy and hide for personal gain, not growth, gain
Your finding yourself my friend.
One day at a time your doing it
On the sobriety side
My mental health took a turn for the best when i quit drugs and alcohol
Who would have thought drugs and alcohol hurt my mental health.
I also take my meds as prescribed. We all could use a little help sometimes
Good luck friend
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How are you doing, my friend? 
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Thank you so much for sharing that! Much needed words, my friend.
Thanks for reaching out,my friends @tailee17 and @ICanAndWill I’m okay. 31 AF, 26 weed free.
I’ll be away from here at least for a month because I spent way too much in the social media. So, I bought a basic phone, only for texts and calls. So, I’m not gonna be here for at least a month.
My sobriety is strong. See ya guys in a month or so! Stay sober! God bless yall!
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Thanks for letting us know, friend. Take good care of yourself.
Sending lots of love! 
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Thank you, my dear friend. The post office hasn’t delivered the retro phone yet, so I can still be in here for a short while.
27 AF, 32 weed free. Feeling good. I’m going home tomorrow from the psych ward and I’m starting to run again. I used to be a long-distance trail runner before booze took control. But now I’m gonna take it all back and starting to run again.
This episode at the psych ward have taught me a lot. I feel more confident and stronger than in years. I guess I’m starting to finally heal. My care team are working to get me in to cognitive therapy which I’m really grateful. One year ago or even six months ago I wasn’t ready to face my demons but now I’m ready for the battle. Never give up!
I’ll let you guys know when I quit using this smartphone and disappear from here for a while. Peace and love!
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This is the best news I’ve heard all day! Yay! I’m so happy for you!!!;
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Thank you, brother!
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I just received a notice from the post office that my retro phone is srriving tomorrow. So this is my last day in the wonderful world of internet. I’m feeling anxious and happy at the same time. How will I survive without endless scrolling of Instagram, haha? Where do I get my dopamine? Well, the answer is easy. Exercising. Walking and running. Reading a good book. This should be fun.
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Don’t worry, my friend, I’ll be back after my digital retreat. I’m planning to last at least for a month or so. But eventually I’ll come back here.
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28 AF, 33 weed free
I got my retro phone, so I’m starting my digital retreat today. Stay strong, my friends and see you in April! Peace and love!
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Goddammit, I can’t stay away from here. This community is so important to me that I wanna be part of this. Other than this forum, I’m staying away from social media for at least a month. I don’t need other sites, social media platforms or forums to distract me or give false dopamine. This is enough, I just love you guys so much. Without you I wouldn’t be sober. So, thank you and see you around after all. I’m gonna be here every day.
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29 AF, 34 weed free
I slept well, but oh man, I’m so depressed and anxious. I just wanna lay in bed, but I’ll try to go for a walk today. Why does this life has to be so damn difficult… I can’t enjoy of it all, everything seems so dark and hopeless. Regret, guilt and shame. My oldest son is now hating me too. He called me a narsistic when I apologized my mistakes and behaviour. I feel so lonely, I don’t have friends or family left, I’m completely alone.
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I’m at the psych ward, again. I had to seek help because my condition went rapidly worse. I can’t live by my own in my current supported housing, so I’m probably moving out to more supported housing where there are staff 24/7. I’m a total mess and by admitting it I’m on my path to healing. I haven’t lost hope although everything feels so dark and I’m so damn alone. I have only one true friend whom I’m daily contact with but she lives in Australia and I’m living in Northern Europe, in a Nordic country. My other friends just don’t get me, I’m way too different for them. But here I am safe. I’m not right now strong enough to start therapy but in the future, yes. But during these mad times I’m still sober and continuing it. Using substances would break my psyche totally. One day at a time.
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Oh my goodness! I’m sending you such a big hug!
The amount of courage, humility, and self-awareness to be able to admit these things is tremendous. I’m so proud of you! I am deeply inspired by your fortitude.
You are healing.
You are growing.
And that looks different for each person.
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Thank you so much, brother. Same goes for you, I’m really proud of you, how open and humble you are. Thank you for being here. Hugs. God bless you.
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