Again I slept well but saw some disturbing dreams where I was using benzos and when I woke up, my first thought was I need those damn pills. But the thought went away quickly. Today I’m gonna go for a run/power walk again and enjoy the good dopamine hit it gives me. Although I’m still a mess, sad, anxious and depressed, every day is easier. I’m hopeful that everything is gonna be allright. I’m gonna have a good day and I wish you the same day/night!
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Good work not giving into that first thought 
I hope you are having a good day as well! Praying for you 
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Thank you! Luckily it was only a thought. My sobriety is strong. My day has been good, thanks. I’m just about to go for a run. How are you doing today? Thank you for the prayer. I’ll pray for you, my friend.
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Great job on ur timers friend! Ur really making great progress! ODAAT 
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Thank you, my dear friend! Indeed, one day at a time. And your sobriety is so inspiring, thank you for being here to help us all!
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You help me as well friend!! I dont comment often on ur thread, but I do read it, and am extremely impressed with how u are handling situations today. I hope ur proud of ur progress too!
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Thank you, much appreciated! Without you guys I wouldn’t be sober although I’m just on early recovery. You all mean a world to me.
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I’m doing good!! Currently getting some fresh air and sun helps clear the mind! Thanks so much for your prayers, it means a lot 
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Glad to hear! Oh yes, getting sun and fresh air always helps. Here’s a sunny day, so can’t wait to go for a run.
I feel surprisingly good this morning. I slept well and now I’m ready to tackle this day. I wish you all a great 24 everyone!
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Glad to hear you’re feeling good today, my friend. You’re doing so many beneficial things right now, and I know how exhausting that can be with depression at the wheel. Odaat. Enjoy your good feelings today. 
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Thank you, my friend! Yes, this has been a good day, full of exercising and good music. Depression hasn’t paralyzed me, it’s only in the background. ODAAT indeed. How are you doing?
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I’m hanging in there, my friend, thanks for asking!
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Good to hear! Never give up, we’re in this together!
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38 AF, 43 without weed
I slept well, but I feel like I’m sleeping way too much. I go to bed around 9pm and wake up around 9am. It’s been like this for weeks. I don’t wanna wake up earlier because I don’t have anything to do in the mornings, so maybe I should go to bed later on. I dunno.
It’s a gray day. Today I have a Teams appointment with my psych nurse and counselor. This is a last meeting with my psych nurse because they don’t want to continue due to my substance using. That’s ok for me. I’m waiting blood and drug tests, so I can start a therapy. Other than the appointment today, I’m gonna go for a run/power walk and just enjoy the quiet day. I wish you all a great sober 24! We got this!
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I’m so happy for you! You’re fighting so hard and are being so courageous through it all. You should be so very, very proud of yourself!
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Thank you, my brother in Christ! Every day feels easier although I’m aware that I’m gonna have rough days in some point because of my mental health. But I’m enjoying of every good moment.
And I’m so proud of you! You’re doing so well with your addictions. Together we will succeed. ODAAT!
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Yes, but I invite you to look at that from a different perspective:
You will have rough days at some point because that’s life.
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You’re right. But because of my bipolar and borderline diagnoses my mental state can crash in a second. Luckily I’m now feeling strong.
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Our DSM diagnoses aren’t identifiers nor excuses. One thing that I admire the most about you is that you’ve not used them to justify poor behavior.
I used to be obsessed with finding out what was “wrong” with me. I had therapists ask why it was important to me. I told them, how can we slay a beast if we don’t know what we’re fighting against?
I’m glad I kept fighting for myself. Because with the proper diagnosis and subsequent therapies, I now have a semi-functional life (as before it wasn’t at all functional).
DBT helps with BPD symptoms. So when life starts to get shitty again, you can use your wonderful brain to navigate through it positively. Like you are right now!!!
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Thank you so much for the encouragement. And I’m really happy that you have proper tools to battle against inner demons!
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