This is an illusion. You’re doing so much bad to youself drinking, I’m not even talking hangovers and money wasted. For me the highest price was that it kept me stuck in my pain and barred the way to understanding myself and actually working on my issues and knowing myself, feeling my feelings. So much time wasted where I was stuck in agony, unable to move forward. The same is true for you. You’ve moved from one drug to the next it sounds. You got to remove all of these toxic refuges in order to face yourself i.e. the reasons you’re addicted in the first place.
It will always be related to you. But if you work on recovery, you will 100% discover that you are so much more than what you know of yourself and how you know yourself in active addiction. You’ll be less lonely, because you’ll have a relationship with yourself that makes you feel good, that is not just shame and embarrassment and pain.
You’ll remember the old times. But you’ll move on. You’ll stop yearning for that because what you will have in recovery will be so much better. That’s a promise. If you work it, it’ll work out that way.
Now. Get going.
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