Hello @Faisalb and welcome to this place. I’m sorry you’re going through all that fear and pain. What are you doing to stay clean and sober? Are you working a program? Therapy? Counceling?
I suggest reading around here and do what has helped others. There’s lots of information and live support on this forum. It can be a great assett but it’ll most likely not be enough on its own.
Here are some helpful links
Advice for the Newcomer and Constant Relapser
Good luck!