7 months and 14 days. Got this one Yesterday. 1 month and 14 days without cigarettes. Vaping just two three (I donāt know How to Say) breathe.
Iām fasting for the first Time since 17 Years for the Ramadan because I Can. I 'm not really a religious person but I felt that It was a great way to feel connected to my Roots, my late father, and for people in the World suffering. It helps with the anger and I meditate / pray on māy on World for māy loved ones and for a better World.
Great work friend. Love all the addiction free time you have gathered up. Great to see you doing well in your sobriety. Keep up the amazing efforts 
Got my 8 months chip and very proud but to bĆ© honest I have dangerous thoughts because I feel angry??? Thanks God I have a lot of meetings in Paris. and Iāll start to jog this weekend. I bought cigarettes After 2 months but Iāll bĆ© back on track ! Sending love 
Thatās fantastic friend ā 8 months is amazing work. Grateful for the meetings and that you will be getting out to jog ā i know how the anger can eat us alive. Sending love right back friend - keep up the great efforts 
Thank you 
Hello Yesterday I was in bar in Paris and It was great. My Friends were drinking a Lot but I was drinking māy Mango juice and limonades and laughed a lot. I didnāt want to drink AT ALL. Itās my New life now and itās very great to be there and enjoy every part of It. I left and sent message to my Friend. I donāt know How she ended the night. Waiting for her text. But she read māy message and I think that she IS fine. She Can stop AT some point. That wasnāt my case. Itās thĆ© Big diffĆ©rence.
Also I go to AA meetings when I Can and this month just 2 Times. Itās april so itās the 4 th step " Taking a personal inventory". At first I thought It was about making a list of your defects and flaws. But itās not. And I started to write about it. Itās really powerful. Just wanted to share this.
Sending lot of Love 
Have a Wonderful day.
K
This is wonderful to readā¦ getting a grasp on your life and surroundings and living your life with your new found freedomā¦way to go friend. Keep working on your journey 
9 months and almost 12 days. Got My 9 months chip today. I wasnāt planning on going to this meeting but I was working from home and managed to.
And we went for a lunch. It was such a great Time.
But After that I was really mad. Iām mad in general. Talking with māy loved ones about matter of life, Ć©ducation, politic is exhausting. And for me itās a Big matter as Iām trying to stay true to myself and stop lowing my Voice. But then everybody stays quiet like Iām the one overreacting. Iām mad because people are selfish. Maybe Iām mad because I stayed quiet for too longā¦well itās gonna be okā¦
9+ months is amazing work friend. Glad you went and picked up your chip!
Oof the anger and intense emotions can be overwhelming and rile up the blood. I know I"m working on my short fuse and anger management issues (it does take time in recovery).
this very much could be the case. I find that writing out the anger issues and stepping back helps me - sometimes i find that i may have over reacted and others is see that i may be rightfully angry but iām the one thatās hurting so i try to figure out a way to let that shit go.
the Fuck Right Off thread is helpful in this department 
Conglomerated List of āThings that can Fck right off (Part 2)
Thank you Jazzy, you are a 
Iām gonna check this thread.
āi may be rightfully angry but iām the one thatās hurting so i try to figure out a way to let that shit goā
Absolutely.
Iāll work on that. More. Because I didnāt at the beginning but itās like I forgot or maybe this anger IS alsona way for me not to feel numb. I donāt want to get rid of Itā¦but you are right. I have to step backā¦Iām not convinced as I write this but hey weāll see. Miracle do happen 
i have faith. yes ā miracles do happen
I totally relate to you feeling an emotion intensely in a way to feel numb. Do you think therapy might help? Possibly get to the root of why you are wanting to feel numb? For me EMDR therapy helped to some extent and then i reached to my HP to help ā believe me, iām still working on it but it has gotten so much better.
big hugs friend and a huge congrats for all that you have accomplished 
Yess Iāll try to find a therapist but Iāve been in therapy for 2 Years about my alcohol addiction already. I Can see now How It helped but anger is a feeling likĆ© other, itās part of who I am and I donāt want to repress It. I. BUT you are right have to find a way to express It and let It out and not feel overwhelmed with is. D-anger 
Someone Yesterday told me that Iām growing UP, Being an adulte. Itās true. Because I skipped a good part of my childhood because of situations.
Thank your Itās really helping me and If I Can do anything to help too
You are most welcome friend. Glad to be on this journey with you.
Grateful that we are learning more about ourselves in this journey. I honestly didnāt realize all that I had shut off or hid away while staying numbed.
I canāt believe Iām more than 300 days sober as I was at the point It was really hard to spend 24h without drinking. It was I was an opened wound. Itās healing but I have to be careful with this scar
Sending love 
if you are here and Reading this youāve made a good choice.
Way to go friend ā 10 months is amazing work and great work on healing in your recovery. You are crushing it 
Thanks you and I hope you are all ok. 
1 year is terrific. Donāt let anything rob your personal joy!
First of all ā Way to go friend! You are doing an amazing job on this journey and you should be super proud.
I totally get the need to hold the chip (your banner of honor for your accomplishments). Donāt let the need to want this in your hand make you feel bad or disappointed. You are doing a superb job!
Its the little rewards that helped me and still help me on my journey. Keep up the fantastic work 
I really needed these words 
Thank for your kind words everytime.
awe you are most welcome friend. We are in this together
