Thank you for the support ! 
It means a lot !!!
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Hello ! How are you all ?
Iām tired and have a lot to do but trying not to stress too much. Still sober and donāt want to drink at all. Yesterday I went to see my old colleagues. Last Time I Saw them was when I leaved this work and WE had si much drinks, so wasted ā¦they notices this time I didnāt drink alcohol but I didnāt mind at all and was still this super fun girl, laughing, singingā¦happier. when I worked with them It was so Bad. Started the job while separating and trying to leaved and I find a place, the COVID etc and the job was so hard. They explain that itās worst than ever. Iām glad I fought to leave this awful place. And to be alive. Grateful for everything Iāve been through.
Donāt wanna be in this place ever again.
Sending all my support and love 
K.
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So lovely to hear from you. Almost at your 6 months of sobriety 
. Thatās gotta feel wonderful. Great job of mingling with old colleagues and not drinking. I know sometimes our old atmospheres or aquaintnces can make us want to indulge
Love this! Keep doing all that you are doing 
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Thank you ! 
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For me focusing on the future inevitably makes me think of the pastā¦I need to break up the day into 1/3ā¦one day sometimes seems too long but when I donāt think of today the aa road seems daunting and impossible so the lil devil in me says āfuvk itā instead of the the good guy telling me ālet that shit goā
I learned that as much as connection is important, itās more than human connection that gets us throughā¦hone in on your spiritual and develop it like your life depended on itā¦
You got this!!!
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I understand 
Some days itās one hour at a Time. Still need to ajust thingsā¦like too much interaction during the day is not good and I really need Time alone so learned to Say no to rest
Taking Care of our spirit. Thanks for your words
Yesterday was 6 monthsā¦got my 6 months chip tonightā¦I kinda donāt like It ā¦like itās been already used ā¦It donāt matter in fact but Iām grumpy since Yesterday. Because I saw my doctor and Iām not happy with the way the consultation wentā¦
but nevermind. I had dinner with my AA Friends tonight. Got Big hugs. So feel better. 
6 months guys. Iām proud. And day 2 without cigarettes
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6 months is huge and you should be proud. 
Day 2 of no smoking ā¦ could this be the cause of the grumpiness?
You are doing a hell of a jobā¦Iām sorry about the doctors visit. I know our health doesnāt magically bounce back just cause we leave our addictions but our bodies do start repairing themselves. This would not be possible if we were still smoking and drinking. So heāll yeah for paving a healthier way for yourself.
Join us on the Grumpy A-holes (quitting cigarettes/ nicotine products) thread ā¦a lot of good advice and support on quitting smoking.
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7 months and 14 days. Got this one Yesterday. 1 month and 14 days without cigarettes. Vaping just two three (I donāt know How to Say) breathe.
Iām fasting for the first Time since 17 Years for the Ramadan because I Can. I 'm not really a religious person but I felt that It was a great way to feel connected to my Roots, my late father, and for people in the World suffering. It helps with the anger and I meditate / pray on māy on World for māy loved ones and for a better World.
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Great work friend. Love all the addiction free time you have gathered up. Great to see you doing well in your sobriety. Keep up the amazing efforts
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Got my 8 months chip and very proud but to bĆ© honest I have dangerous thoughts because I feel angry??? Thanks God I have a lot of meetings in Paris. and Iāll start to jog this weekend. I bought cigarettes After 2 months but Iāll bĆ© back on track ! Sending love 
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Thatās fantastic friend ā 8 months is amazing work. Grateful for the meetings and that you will be getting out to jog ā i know how the anger can eat us alive. Sending love right back friend - keep up the great efforts 
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Thank you 
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Hello Yesterday I was in bar in Paris and It was great. My Friends were drinking a Lot but I was drinking māy Mango juice and limonades and laughed a lot. I didnāt want to drink AT ALL. Itās my New life now and itās very great to be there and enjoy every part of It. I left and sent message to my Friend. I donāt know How she ended the night. Waiting for her text. But she read māy message and I think that she IS fine. She Can stop AT some point. That wasnāt my case. Itās thĆ© Big diffĆ©rence.
Also I go to AA meetings when I Can and this month just 2 Times. Itās april so itās the 4 th step " Taking a personal inventory". At first I thought It was about making a list of your defects and flaws. But itās not. And I started to write about it. Itās really powerful. Just wanted to share this.
Sending lot of Love
Have a Wonderful day.
K
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This is wonderful to readā¦ getting a grasp on your life and surroundings and living your life with your new found freedomā¦way to go friend. Keep working on your journey
9 months and almost 12 days. Got My 9 months chip today. I wasnāt planning on going to this meeting but I was working from home and managed to.
And we went for a lunch. It was such a great Time.
But After that I was really mad. Iām mad in general. Talking with māy loved ones about matter of life, Ć©ducation, politic is exhausting. And for me itās a Big matter as Iām trying to stay true to myself and stop lowing my Voice. But then everybody stays quiet like Iām the one overreacting. Iām mad because people are selfish. Maybe Iām mad because I stayed quiet for too longā¦well itās gonna be okā¦
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9+ months is amazing work friend. Glad you went and picked up your chip!
Oof the anger and intense emotions can be overwhelming and rile up the blood. I know I"m working on my short fuse and anger management issues (it does take time in recovery).
this very much could be the case. I find that writing out the anger issues and stepping back helps me - sometimes i find that i may have over reacted and others is see that i may be rightfully angry but iām the one thatās hurting so i try to figure out a way to let that shit go.
the Fuck Right Off thread is helpful in this department 
Conglomerated List of āThings that can Fck right off (Part 2)
Thank you Jazzy, you are a 
Iām gonna check this thread.
āi may be rightfully angry but iām the one thatās hurting so i try to figure out a way to let that shit goā
Absolutely.
Iāll work on that. More. Because I didnāt at the beginning but itās like I forgot or maybe this anger IS alsona way for me not to feel numb. I donāt want to get rid of Itā¦but you are right. I have to step backā¦Iām not convinced as I write this but hey weāll see. Miracle do happen 
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i have faith. yes ā miracles do happen
I totally relate to you feeling an emotion intensely in a way to feel numb. Do you think therapy might help? Possibly get to the root of why you are wanting to feel numb? For me EMDR therapy helped to some extent and then i reached to my HP to help ā believe me, iām still working on it but it has gotten so much better.
big hugs friend and a huge congrats for all that you have accomplished
Yess Iāll try to find a therapist but Iāve been in therapy for 2 Years about my alcohol addiction already. I Can see now How It helped but anger is a feeling likĆ© other, itās part of who I am and I donāt want to repress It. I. BUT you are right have to find a way to express It and let It out and not feel overwhelmed with is. D-anger 
Someone Yesterday told me that Iām growing UP, Being an adulte. Itās true. Because I skipped a good part of my childhood because of situations.
Thank your Itās really helping me and If I Can do anything to help too
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