That’s a lot to deal with, but is a good motivation as well to push trough to a better life.
Glad you found us. We are from all over the world here. Many of us has discovered the distruction of alcohol like you, ore with other doc (drug of choice) and many recovered.
You can do that too.
I will share a thread with you with many other kind of recourses.
I found reading books about recovery ore listen to a podcast also very stimulating and you will find many on this thread as well.
Stick around, we are all here for you!
If you have cravings come here to talk instead of picking up! Use us!
Like I said we are from all around the globe so there is always someone awake to talk to!