I just wanna say howdy to my new found family! I came across this app thinking it as like every other sobriety app, but then I saw all the positive reinforcement and encouraging posts so I immediately knew I belonged here.
A little about me, I began using crystal methamphetamine about 6 years ago. Oh you know at first it was the usual fun and games until I realized I wasn’t doing the meth, it was doing me. I knew I met the devil when he told me to put that needle in my arm 3 years ago. I was taking the highway to Hell at that point. (Punny, I know.)
I tried to “quit” countless times, went to rehab twice. I successfully completed one but as soon I was released, I was gone. Back to the good ole ways of getting high and not caring about anyone but myself. I was kicked out of my nursing school for a positive drug screen. I had to complete treatment for me to be able to be considered for readmission. Luckily, they let me back in. Did I stay clean, no. Instead I decided to spice my drug use up, and began speed balling meth and fentanyl. I thought I was being slick and no one new until about 2 weeks ago, I failed out of my nursing school again… I would have graduated May 23 with my RN. And I totally f***** that off.
I compromised my future, hurt my family and friends, lost myself- all to chase a high that robbed me of everything I was. The worst part is that I did it all to myself when I knew the consequences and what the outcome would be. I thought I was “different” and could outsmart the drug. But of course, it played me like a fiddle. I’ve come to the realization that I’m at that place they call rock bottom. I have one more chance to make this right. And I will. WE will.
I have 1 day clean, today. And the rest of my lifetime to add to that.
I look forward to being able to listen to all of your testimonies. You truly inspire me and I’m so thankful to have found this app. God Bless you all. Thank you so much for welcoming me to this wonderful community. The type of encouragement I’ve read on her is what helps people stay sober. Saves lives.
Thank you for listening to my rambling!
—-Peyton
thanks for sharing and happy to have you here!