Good for you Hollz- happy for you! 
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Hahah you’re more than welcome and likeable! 
Sounds nice, so the meditation can ease the pain…? I slip in and out of meditation but should and will give it a proper chance again. I’ve noticed I need to be all in if I wish to stay sober, like I need to literally change and consider my whole lifestyle now… Replacing the void with something proactive is part of the package. And here we are, congrats on 25 days btw! 
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@1in8billion when you’re in this amount of pain you need something. Honestly I wasn’t really big on the idea of meditation but I went in completely open minded and it doesn’t fix anything but it does help. Definitely worth trying 
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Good morning everyone. My first day off in awhile so I’m planning on doing some reading and catching up and I couple really great meditation books that are interactive so I am thinking about throwing some time into those 
stay blessed all
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Sounds like a good plan - enjoy your day Hollz!
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I shared the pic of me and him in there 
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love you,
Mom
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I love you momma I hope you like it here, there’s so many amazing people
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So I went to the surgeon today 
they gave me a shot in my shoulder and want to do a different kind of MRI 
I’m frustrated and irritated but I know I’m blessed and I’m trying to focus on that. On the fact that I’m able to even get seen by a doctor. That this isn’t my time as much as the control freak in me wants it to be, and I need to be patient. I need to let go and let God
emphasized text I am not in control of every single thing and that’s not a bad thing!!
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Hmmm 
I see so many people complaining and it kinda makes me feel guilty that they are saying they are so miserable yet I’m so happy and grateful. Healthy and more content and proud of myself then I ever have been
IS THERE SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME??
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The attitude of gratitude can get us a long way, nothing wrong with you.
Im sure we’ve done nothing but complained about our misery when stuck in our addictions
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Nothing is wrong with you. For some people it just clicks. I think it has alot to do with if your really quitting for yourself.
My first attempts at sobriety werent really for myself if im being totally honest. I was doing it to please my wife and because I felt the responsibilty to be a better father.
My final quit was more about me. My wife and kids were motivation but I wanted it!
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The gratitude in this post is what is going to get you through.
We are lucky to live the lives we do. 7 billion people on this planet. We have a a roof over our head, food in our bellies, and access to some of the best healthcare in the world. Not many can say that.
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Some people have different baselines. Some people use the forum for different reasons and tend to check in more when they’re struggling. And we all have times when we feel better and worse. I know I have times when I am so stuck in my own head, gratitude doesn’t feel very available to me.
In early sobriety I was riding a pink cloud for a few months and EVERYTHING WAS AMAZING! Then life caught up with me a bit and I wasn’t really prepared to deal with it. But that was all part of my journey and I did deal with it. It might not work like that for you, it doesn’t for everyone, but it doesn’t hurt to be aware of it. Some good discussion of that here
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Thanks for the feedback. And I quit along time ago and I was miserable but I was ordered by a court I had hurt someone in a fight and I didn’t want any part of being sober or for that matter I didn’t think that I needed to be sober… alcohol wasn’t the problem, I was… and that there was my mind set for a very long time. But I know how I feel and I’m strong lord knows I’m strong, but I’m happy and I have never stopped anything in my life that I didn’t finish and this will not be any different. I have bad days, I have days where I’m in pain I just don’t find negativity as a choice of how I deal with things because it doesn’t get me anywhere to be negative. Or it gets me sympathy which is even worse.
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Have to loose some of the smaller battles to win the war.
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