Yeah, I’m generally doing ok.
I can’t resist lol. We get one item per shift, so yeah😆
Yeah, I’m generally doing ok.
I can’t resist lol. We get one item per shift, so yeah😆
Oof y’all. I gotta fix my phone. None of y’all’s stuff has given me notifications. That’s mad annoying. That’s a big part of why I’ve been gone. Plus, I was on vacation and been mad busy lol.
Nice to see you back and hear from you. Glad things are generally going ok for you. You’ve come a long long way since the beginning of this thread you created.
Flashback. I can feel him touching me. I can’t make it stop
Who. Use some of your coping strategies
I’m a bit better now.
Just had to wait it out and use some fidgets. Lots of slime and Squishies.
Good. Is this something you have discussed with your therapist. I’d hate to think that this had the power to significantly set you back when it crops up if you havn’t had any help to try and process iti obviously don’t know what it was you were remembering but it sounds like it was a horrible situation.
Here’s a little hedgehog hug to try and cheer you up a bit .
Not yet. It feels so stupid to me. But I’m working on bringing it up in group. I talked some today. Really general, talked about my nightmares, and vaguely talked about the dudes who did the shit.
We tried to process what happened but I couldn’t talk about it cause it’s about sex and abuse and mental health and all that shit. So yeah.
The memories were of one of the guys who assaulted me, for lack of a better word. But I hesitate to use the word flashback cause it kinda feels like my pain isn’t that bad, you know?
That’s so good that you talked in the group about it. Even if it was not exactly what you wanted to say or the full details, that’s great progress!
Whether it’s memories or a flashback, the point is you’ve got some difficult shit to process and you are doing it. Amazing
Yeah. But I’ve been off and more tired than normal ever since lol.
Thank you😊. It’s so nice to have the support from this community. I really am trying.
I accidentally cut myself on an ice cream container at work the other day, and since then, I’ve been really wanting to cut. I haven’t, but it’s hard and yeah.
My headaches and dizziness have been back for a while. Yesterday I was so dizzy I felt nauseous and like I might pass out. I had to sit on the floor at work till it got a bit better. It was so stressful and frustrating.
And to have every single person, including my mom who has known about this for like a year now, just tell me to drink more water is so frustrating. I drink so much water. At least 64 oz a day. At least. It’s just so frustrating. Last year in school, I was so dizzy I was sick, couldn’t focus, could barely walk, and couldn’t sit up straight and everyone just said to drink more water. Even though when the nurse checked my BP it showed I wasn’t dehydrated.
I’m just annoyed because there’s clearly more there and it feels like I’m not being heard.
You’ve come so far Kaki, so proud of you! It’s often very hard to open up and share but it’s so brave to be vulnerable! And it helps! And in doing so, you’re also helping others to, to have courage and be brave just like you. It’s also okay to feel off sometimes, many of us do, life is a journey full of ups, downs, emotions, experiences -some good, and unfortunately, some not so good, but true courage is to face our fears and challenges head on, and then triumph over them! And you already know you CAN do it. Keep finding fun, positive things to do, keep getting better, keep pushing forward and choose to make the most out of your life. Use what you’ve been through to help, not only yourself but others too, that always makes us feel good when we be there for others. And on those low days, cuddles with you pet always help! haha. But, just don’t look back, don’t cut again, it will not help nor make you feel okay or any better. Keep loving yourself and knowing your self-worth, because YOU ARE WORTHY and you matter! hope you have a wonderful day ahead my dear.
Do you have a Dr you could talk to about it? Are you getting enough rest? Fruit? Vegetables? Little things like food, hydration and rest and just generally taking care of ourselves usually helps, however it’s best not to rule out other factors it could be, so maybe talking to a doc or someone you trust that can give you good advice/answers may help maybe it’s anxiety related?
Thank you!
Omg it’s mad hard! But I really hope you’re right and it helps. And I hope it helps others too. We’ll see.
Yeah, puppy playtime always helps lol. Yeah, I’m not going to. I just miss it.
Thank you so much for that incredibly kind message!!!
Oof. Recently I’ve been really wanting to cut. I haven’t and I won’t, but it’s really annoying. I really miss it and idk what’s so bad about it, but yeah. Idk. I can practically feel it. I miss every little thing. Plus, it gave me something to focus on. And when I felt bad, I could just touch it and it would hurt and I’d feel better.
And now that I’ve typed it out, I realize how awful that sounds. Wow. Ok then.
Kaki,
I came real close to relapse yesterday. I was craving soooo much. I tend to crave a lot. More than others here.
And I notice that you crave a lot too, even after a year sober. And you always pull through. I commend you for that.
You mentioned before that you learned some practical stuff when you were in rehab. Would you share more please? Thanks.
And good job on not craving alone. We will stay sober today.
Are you feeling any better? When I feel lousy, which is often, I try to remember that it will pass and get better, like it has in the past. That’s really hard to remember for me. Anyway I really appreciate your honesty. I hate living in this culture where everyone has to be “up” all time. Either pretending everything is great or giving other people advice so we don’t have to think about our own problems. My least favorite quote in the English language: “laugh and the world laughs with you; cry and you cry alone.” No wonder I drank to hide my misery.
Aww. That stinks. I normally don’t, but when I do, it’s hard.
Thank you😊
I learned stuff like ice diving, deep breathing, going over the facts, stuff like that. I’m thinking of going back to the hospital maybe over break cause my anxiety and sensory issues are becoming really bad.
Thanks!
Yeah, I’m feeling a bit better . Same. I tend to know how long I’ll be sad for and just accept that and after that it’ll be ok again.
Omg same! I hate that everyone expects me to be happy and ok all the time. I still have mental health issues and yeah. It’s stupid. People freak out when I’m sad. It’s so annoying.
Awww. That’s a bad quote. It’s so not true. Most of the time I cry with people or a puppy lol