That bridge looks a bit like the Erasmusbridge in Rotterdam! Funny!
And I think you have found that church you where looking for! 
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Exactly my thaught, it was not the 15th century one … See pm
And my new friend yubomir… He has a bin Laden tattoo 
from the old days before 9_11 , when he was down with the USA gov.
He spoke russian und Deutsch so had nice conversation
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I’m so sorry you have been so sick. But I am so happy to see you are back and you are feeling better. We can hope and pray 
that the future only bring the best of good things to come for you. 
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Next month the 12th to radiology, then on to the next ride but for now I am good and with God bless in good health.
Thnx for your message 
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So today was a quiet and offcourse to bloody ginger hot day but I managed to get some shizz worked out and now am relieved off allmost all stress. Which I have TS to thank for.
My friend here arranged a free bit of ink…
Just the word
Zivjli… wich means cheers in one way but it really means " celebrate life "
One day at the time I keep on going on believing in the future !
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Yes it is !! And just another memory set in flesh and bone
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Hey b , just wanted to check up on you. I remembered the sweet Nala card you sended me while in ops last time when I was missing her this morning.
Just took a quick covid test becouse I take the PCR later today… in order to fly later this week…
I guess I will be fine.
My catastrophic thaughts now banned 
Have a good day, or evening wherever you are on this world fellow members.
Be safe !
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Awwwwww that made my day. Glad your test was negative. Reminds me of one of the thousands and thousands of pregnancy tests I took when I was trying to have my 2nd. I’m triggered. I want to pee on a test
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Lmao …you just go and have a test then you get my Olympics “gold” medal for testing and aiming sports …
Have a good one
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Today was a blast,
My landlord took me for a spin to the European Niagara falls in Montenegro, such a beautiful sight again.
After that we had a little bit to eat and I am so glad that I have been granted the opportunity to see yet again something that will be grifted in my memory…v
Wauw.
Feeling blessed
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Yessss, and another great day !
Feeling really good and overcame all my fears. PCR negative as well , results just came in.
Tomorrow I rest and relax then Thursday up to some small ink for the memory
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Aww thanks for thinking about me. Sending love and prayers back to you and Nala. I’ve been really busy at work but that’s a good thing sometimes. It keeps me out of trouble. Lol
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Well … Today I started wondering about the fact that I really have to move away from my current town.
I just think there is to much past there, and a fresh start would be good I guess.
I have a job waiting when I get back but I can, as it seems now also relocate to Greece and start working there.
Big discisions, but are they based on reality or a lie I live in… and maybe I still am fleeing away from myself.
Building a good and safe environment is basically nummero uno atm on my priority list but sometimes I just don’t see the way.
Then there is the hospital thing,
So maybe not rushing in to discisions is the best for now. ( I know that’s the most sane thinking) but on the other hand… I really am feeling so unhappy/not safe and lonely for a long time at current place that there’s only to gain maybe.
I could also go to Hungary, I had contact about that this week as well but in the end… I only know that I’m not in place right now, but is it me making steps?? Or is me running away from reality? When does someone know for sure.
Like my vacation, some days I feel blessed and really free, and other days it just feels like a giant jump away from a distant reality… And in that case I should first take care of business…
Confusion dwells my thaughts I guess.
What are your thoughts on this subject @mno @DLS @littlemisschatterbox @C_8 @Girlinterrupted @Lisa07 @anon57836609 @Jimieg @Lisa07 ?
Am I running? Am I fleeing ? Am I making progression? Am I making steps for the good?
Only thing I know is that my current place feels like poison for since the first traumatic experience there.
I had a black out before I went on vacation, the scnd in my life, just triggered and lost maybe 4 hours and could not recall a thing.
Also applied for some clinical trials just for the 
… So I guess I am throwing more lines in the water than is good, or keeping options open … which is in a way also ok
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I know for me if I have a big decision and I sleep on it, like moving, I’ll wake up with either a good vibe for it or need to think more about it.
I think we know intuitively, you feel the calmness when the decision is made.
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I don’t know friend. Those are big decissions. Take your time to weigh your options carefully. Make a list of pros and cons and take your time. And get plenty of feedback, like you are doing now. One thing I do know is that you always take yourself with you. There’s no running from yourself friend.
Hungary and Greece both seem not the easiest options. How’s your language skills? In Greece loads of folks don’t speek anything but Greek. I don’t know about Hungary but I’d imagine it’s the same there, most Hungarians just speaking hungarian with is a damned hard language to learn. And I don’t like the political situation at all there. I’d feel pretty isolated in both places I think. But that’s me. You probable make new friends a lot faster than I.
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Hungary is one of the world most difficult languages to learn but it’s about my skills in English so that should be ok.
I will start with the list you recommend , and go over that for maybe a month or two… I still have to get into surgery so plenty of time to overthink.
I will do the initial interviews just to check out what it is about but I also have a new job that awaits me and with that job my boss allready knows that I will be in hospital for a while and he said, you will work before, and you are more then welcome after…
I am 38 now… Is this the start of some midlife thing starting?
I just want to accomplish something in the time that life has left for me I guess… Have somewhat more of a legacy for my children to leave behind.
@DLS is also right , and I know that when I feel it is good then I can confidently make the choice.
Thnx gap
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But are those who are lost just simply wondering?
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Wondering maybe… Wandering is a choice.
When feeling lost you don’t have directions , I just wander arround the planet , my mind, city, feelings and sometimes I indeed still feel lost but fortunately I can say that wherever I get stuck in my trails that now I have the nerve to reach out and ask for help.
When you let everything go , and just take a leap of faith … I can really be a freedom
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I’m probably the last person to give advice on change. I hate change and it’s probably more about fear of the unknown for me. Whatever you decide, we’ll be here for you.
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