So much is going on in your life and in your head! I like that you posted, as it shows (to me) that you are really mulling over the options. This is not the time for hasty decisions (hospital).
As someone who moved from the UK to the US, I can confirm that wherever you go, you will be there. You can’t hide from you.
In my experience, life is much smoother when time and effort is placed on my own mind & body health.
Is there a way you could make your current environment better for you? Do you know what you’re seeking?
Thnx for your reaction, as well as the others but moving from the place where I got shot in the first place is really a thing.
It has been 4 years ago now and if I do the math with all ops and revalidations I have been way more away from “home” then I have been there and it it set in stone that I’m not happy and constantly triggered in ptsd when I am at home.
Most the time I stayed with my ex in her home but I cannot denie that it brings me no 'home is where the lives" over there. It seems to stay a struggle… Pushing dealers who are dropping shit in my mailbox I can resist but the feeling of not being safe has been to much of a part in my life now.
With the feedback so far I decided to make that pro’s en con’s list and indeed make no rash decisions. I will start working the week after I get back home and then I guess first the body to take care of and then the mind to get in a safe environment.
If I had the means to redecorate the whole place it might have been an option but I just paid of like 85% of my dept with the settlement that came in so I’m poor again but out of dept. But to really make it a home again I need like a TV show to come over and fix it
It is a nice place on a spot many people want to live but I’m done in that city … I wandered that streets from 17 till 20 years homeless after my mom died in addiction but also have to admit to not had change a thing if I could becouse I am here right now…
Today I red " never forget, Till now… You were always strong enough " and I guess I keep on going on that road of which I don’t know where it is going to take me.
I did decide that if I have that job interview for Greece that it’s only considerable when they offer me a contract with no experation date, and a chance of moving up… I will not leave everything behind without some hard future things to go for
Also I have that new job waiting and want to see how that works out and relocate to a small town to a house with a garden for Nala.
But the city… I have seen every stone and street in it and there will (for now atm) always will be a kind of poison in it. And that’s no running , that’s me being realistic. 7 years, 5 years etcetera and still I go arround certain areas.
Thank you, and thank you all for the time you’re taking to think along in my ride of emotions and decisions @DLS@mno@Lisa07@littlemisschatterbox and of course the one replying to !
I’m of to bed now in this strange country where the kids seem to be allowed to go out and play after 20:00 till I don’t know how late… While at daytime you don’t see none… But with the temperature…
Well. Another day passed, tomorrow some ink for memory arranged by some familiar locals
And then pack my bags and on to Stansted London for a really long transit.
It’s a hard decision for sure. I cannot say whether it’s running or progressing as I cannot feel and think exactly what you are feeling and thinking. Both countries are relatively poor, but that’s all I really know about them. So it’s hard to form an educated opinion on the matter. And of course there’s my lack of life experience. I’d say stay in the Netherlands as it’s in general one of the happiest countries on earth. Though that’s the average of 17 million folks and not how every individual feels. So if you think it’s best, emigrate.
It’s your life, so your decision.
Make sure you don’t make a decision based on disappointing people or not because it’s your life, not theirs. A wisdom I’ve yet to learn. I’ll support you either way
Argggg , Montenegrin customs don’t even know what to do themselves… You don’t need a visa for airside transit !!! But with me many others so they finaly got the clue…
Glad I’m at the gate… what a mess
Ryanair allready tried to jack me for another 60 pounds couse the travel agency didn’t get me the boarding pass… No cash payments so my nightmare started to came thrue… Then there was Liam who offered to pay with his card but said… it’s nice to be nice and… Let’s get a burger first and litteraly in that few minutes my friend in Holland was also freaking out about all the misfortune and called the agency and said that there would be consequences… And when I took my first bite I received my boarding pass ! My prayers came thrue… But what a shitty airline is Ryanair… Never again. But I got everything sorted and ready to check in after 02:30
Wow! I’m really proud of you for staying strong. You can’t make this shit up. Most people would have went straight to the bar but not you. You stayed calm and it’s all working out. Safe travels!
Just a cola and a sandwich ! Thnx to my new Airport m8, blessed to have met another good person and we both wait together now
they don’t take cash anywhere but besides that… What’s the point of getting wasted…
I said to my self …
Never forget that till now,
You always have been
Just,
Strong enough !
Fuck Ryanair. It’s seemingly a cheap airline, but with all the shit they pull they are way more expensive than many. And there’s no fucking legspace on those planes
It’s hard to make big choices. But I’ve learned to never make them when I’m not in a good state of mind. You are in a fulnerable set of mind now I think. You have an operation coming up, and a very difficult time behind you.
Make plans, but make the big decisions when you are in calmer waters, that would be my advice for you
Ik durf geen selfie te posten… Ben nu 29 uur wakker en zie er uit als een Chinees persoon die uien pelt… Om te janken.
Beadie eyed Joostje. Ben net Amersfoort voorbij en moest ff goed lachen om m’n eigen bakkes.
Thanx for your replie also, one step step at the time and don’t rush into the sea when you know a storm is comming.
Ohhh it would be way more then just f*ck Ryanair… The things a mind can imagine just no words for it, but I will not let it cast a shadow on the good times I had
lives" over there. It seems to stay a struggle… Pushing dealers who are dropping shit in my mailbox I can resist but the feeling of not being safe has been to much of a part in my life now.
