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nice to hear from you
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Sheās just too darn cute! I canāt believe sheās keeping it on. 
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Yesterday was miserable, and exhaustingā¦
My structure still is ok. Iām living by the schedule I made for myself.
That means 7:00 coffee, 0800 is breakfast time Iām, then out for a walk in the park. And then we do another breakfast at 9:30
11:30 I go to the snack restaurant around the corner, with whom I made the rabbit menu deal.
So that means a lot of veggies on a plate, everyday the same but itās a good healthy salad which keeps my energy level up.
Also have some social workers over the floor and I was granted 300 minutes week of help, now I have to divide it in the things I need at the moment like a house keeper, someone to do the heavy lifting and the chores I am not able to do myself.
Maybe the most weird thing is that the only craving I have is 4 nicotine, I donāt get that. Biologically I do get it because of how nicotine works in your brain but still I think itās kind of weird. Here in the north of Holland everythingās ok while in the south there is some flooding and highways are turned into rivers.
09 45 now, stood up at seven and already tired.
My focus is on the espresso machine in the kitchen right nowā¦
I think he might get robbed
The hospital day for the free operational instructions and stuff like that is coming closer.
6 days and then I will know that operation plan.
In God we trust.
Blesss yaālll
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Goodmorning Joost! Iām off to work, but right in time for wishing you a good day 
Keeping my fingers crossed for the operation plan 
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Thank you, I just realised it is on the day 5 years ago that I got mugged and shot, and that the poor boy who did it is already free to wander around the country.
Iām still going from operation to operation to operation to operation operation to operation to operation and now again.
My life has stood still, like a seed that wasnāt able to grow while the world kept on moving, evolving and got further away from me that I could have ever imagined it.
I can still see the situation second 4 secondā¦ minute by minute and de uselessness after situation in a great picture at allā¦ S***ā¦ WTF
16:22 since then it all has been a blur and Iām still trying to get all my things togetherā¦ it just will not fit yet.
I do feel Iāve got the pieces of the puzzle . and I got the picture frame in my mind and itās growinā¦
But whoās to say
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Just holding up, pretty exhausted and tired of the last blood loss and recovery sucks but I have to put on just anorher fight for my life now to get as healthy as possible to my next big abdominal surgery.
Next week I hope I know some more but Iām just
Trying to focus on my health, eat much in little portions and then itās up to the man above I guess.
I survived that rodeo for 7 times now, you canāt help wandering When the coin flips otherwiseā¦
No doomsday thinking but a little reality check is not to forget.
It scares me, and also gives me a weird sence of piece.
Be safe yaāll
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Iāve just read this thread for the first time, bit wanted to wish you the best in your upcoming surgery and your continued strength. Thank you for sharing your courageous fight with us.
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Thnxx
Darn the cast, Iām on cheeeeeese
Had a good day, cigarets stay a bitch btw but I get by.
Now some sun 
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Will be in England , vienna and Podgorica next week #travels
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Thatās great to look forward to, how long do you go?
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Cheese = smiles!
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Yupzzxxx , next week my vacation starts, now @ hospital, plastic surgery department.
Today my dog stepped into a piece of glass and I had to take her to the vet. She is the one on morphine this time. She didnāt even showed that she was in painā¦ My sweet little soldierā¦
She has medicine for a week and Iām glad that she gets to go to the dog hotel on Sunday, and at least I know sheās fully checked up despite of the injury she has now.
I mentioned in my haid earlier today that when the situation evolved and the distress was high
I wanted to get high myselfā¦ Just a craving for cigarets or the feeling I needed something to get more control, ā¦ Gladly I recognised it for what it was but still ā¦
Now we both have glass issues at right paw
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Aww! Feel better Nala. 
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You both help each other when youāre hurt. Hugs Nalaā¦
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