Hey friend, good to see you again! Wish you the best with your new situation!
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Hellooo I am so glad to see you popping in and hear you are doing well! I’ve certainly missed you and your insight. I hope you are able to find a support group that is a good fit for you 
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I’m laying on my sofa, exhausted, but in a good way. So many big things happened when I was on a break from TS. I’ve been busy recently, mainly with my newly found relationship 
I’m not gonna talk about us/him too much bc this is a public website and I respect his privacy.
I’ve had to take a new look at myself and my addiction now that I’m involved with a potential hubby. When things got serious between us I chose to tell him the main lines of my addiction and the abuse I went thru. I didn’t want to keep secrets that might blow up in my face one day.
I needed to process carefully what to tell him bc I didn’t want him to know gruelling details. Not bc I’m ashamed but bc I didn’t want to lay the burden of knowing them on him. It’s enough that I know what happened.
I told him in advance that I have issues with sex and that I’d tell him when there’s more trust between us.
I told him again later that I’m ready if he’s willing to listen.
I asked him to wait with his questions and comments after I’ve finished.
I said it’s not an easy share and I’ll prolly get emotional.
So I plunged and talked. For a long time. He listened and kept his eyes on me.
I promised that if my past ever caused problems in our intimacy, I would seek help again.
I wasn’t totally sure how he would take it. He handled it very well, with compassion and understanding.
I’m glad that we had that conversation and moment of bonding. We’re still getting to know each other and he understands now why I have certain boundaries and sometimes have to ask him to step back or let me go.
It is a good start.
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This is so great to read, Olivia. I’m very happy for you. That took some strength on both your parts and it’s so important.
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So great to hear from you, and that things are going well. 
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Oh wow, so happy to read your update. I hope the relationship continues to nurture you both. 
Thank you for sharing!!
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I’m so happy for you! I recall a while back when you didn’t think you’d ever find a man. Glad to hear you never gave up and your patience paid off. Hope your relationship continues to flourish.
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I’m happy for you Olivia. It sounds like he opened space to listen to you. That’s important and it’s a good sign.
I’m also happy that you opened space for yourself; that’s the strongest thing of all. You have that always. 
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Oh Olivia I cried a little reading this! My heart is full of joy and happiness for you. Opening about these things is hard. I’m glad you found someone that you are comfortable sharing them with. Sending you all the well wishes for continued happiness and deep connection in your relationship.
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Thank you so much for your words! They made me really happy, too. I appreciate you, tribe!
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Haven’t been on in a while & this post made me grin ear to ear. So happy for and proud of you.
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Hey Lady! Good to see you back. You’ve been on my mind wondering how you’re doing. Stick around. You’re worth it!
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I’ve been having a constant headache for almost a week. My neck, back and shoulders get stiff easily bc of work. I couldn’t take it anymore so I booked myself a massage appointment for the same day. The place I usually go to (I’m a member so therefore I get a good discount) didn’t have any masseuses available - only masseurs. This has been tricky in the past. I’ve been uncomfortable being touched by a guy all over on bare skin even if a masseur has been 100% professional in their manner. I was wondering if it has changed now that I’m in a relationship. I was out of options so off I went.
Lo and behold, I had no problems. The way he worked suited my body and we had a casually following chat. I was as relaxed as one can be when your back is like concrete LOL. I really need to budget money for monthly massage appt.s.
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You never know unless you give it a go.
That sentence really pushed my buttons in therapy. I would lay out these worst case scenarios that were inevitable, IMO. My therapist would shoot back with something along the lines of 
I was convinced my scenarios would happen. It’s a way of trying to control things beyond me.
Being in a relationship has showed me that you never really know unless you give it a go! I thought I would never ever ever ever ever be comfortable with a boyfriend sleeping in my studio and not have sex. Lo and behold, I was wrong. Surely, we have boundaries and are aware things can escalate. These recent experiences help me to have an open mind about life in general.
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My 700 days post 
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That’s just fabulous! 
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That is so awesome!! Congrats 
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Wow! Congratulations! 
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Wonderful!!! Congrats! 
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