@Dazercat The fact that you care about a silly girl you’ve never met and take the time to express it means so much to me. I do see a therapist and I have trusted friends I have already confided in. This is a part of the process I’m going thru so even when it’s so heavy, I let sadness come. I don’t want to hate myself and I do want to learn to hate the addiction.
@Clarity Thank you for your words. I saw them as soon as you wrote them but I just couldn’t take it in. I’ve been coming back tho, trying to convince myself what you say is true
and @M-be-free49 thank you. That’s such a beautiful quote. I will take it and make it mine.
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I need to take a break from listening to commercial radio channels. They frequently play adds of sex toy shops/websites. Not to mention how sex centred presenters can be.
Listening to that shit long enough just creeps beyond my barriers. Almost relapsed today.
I’m glad we’re getting into Arctic winter. People dress decently in most places. One reason why I avoid mixed gyms. Just saying.
For an insomniac it’s a victory (bc if you didn’t fall asleep you can’t wake up either, right??)
On such days life is twice as good as it maybe feels. I can do anything! No dizzyness, no headache, no overwhelming exhaustion. I can organise and focus my thoughts. I’m motivated even to clean my oven. I can choose what workout to do since I’m not feeling like a slaughtered worm. I can choose whether I will give a shit or not, in general.
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So, I had a big meeting with my therapists and a chief psychiatrist today. Evaluating my current situation and discussing future.
The therapy I go to is only provided for people with very low income for certain amount of time. I’ve been their client already for 2 years and I’ve been feeling my time is up. If they decided that I’m not eligible for their services anymore, I’d need to find another office and therapist. Sounds maybe harsh but that’s public health care (and this not a complaint!)
Fortunately, today’s meeting’s outcome was that I benefit greatly from therapy and I’m still cuckoo and poor enough to meet their criteria So I got 1 year extension on weekly psychotherapy and a few other things.
So relieved and grateful
Disclaimer: I’m not taking the piss out of ppl w/ mental problems (I’m in that club, duh!) “Cuckoo” is comic relief
I bet this is a big relief. That’s very kind of you to be thinking of others when you’re deserving of the service. Glad you can continue and that it’s of help to you! And, hey, I resemble that remark! (one of my dad’s favorite lines) Cuckoos like us are rad, in my opinion!
Oh good news! You are a gem on this forum, and your courage, honesty, and grit to face your stuff is inspiring - and deserves to be rewarded with another year of therapy!
Seriously, I’m so glad for you.
If it makes you feel better, I asked my therapist if he had any 10-session punch cards for easier billing? And in relation to myself only, I can’t speak for others, I prefer the more technical term “cuckoo bananas”
Sooooo happy to hear you get to continue your journey where you are & with the same people. You are doing awesome and are deserving of this. BTW. . . I have always embraced the term loopy.
Dear Lady, we are all broken to some degree. We all have our quirks, fears, phobias, traumatic memories, and dysfunctions. Some of us have a name to put toward the darkness, and some go their entire lives with the darkness going unnamed. Some wear this on their sleeves, and some are much better at hiding it. Some freely accept this, and some are in permanent denial.
So I got 1 year extension on weekly psychotherapy and a few other things.
(one of my dad’s favorite lines) Cuckoos like us are rad, in my opinion!
