Thanks for the support. I was pretty down about it yesterday but I am feeling better today.
I am not going to give up on trying.
It certainly helps to have a place where you can be honest and not be judged and still get support.
I also went to SA meeting yesterday. Another great support system.
Hi everyone, day 1 again. I had 3 weeks sober awhile ago before everything collapsed into a long period of using. I can kinda see what triggered me and am working through it as best I can see how, which isn’t that great since it’s a complicated emotional issue, but gettin’ back in the saddle and moving forward.
38days is friggen awesome @Rayrock ! Congratulations bud! Me and you, let’s pick ouselves up and keep goin’, one breath at a time!
Christian congrats on the 3 weeks!
Complicated emotional issues often need help from others to deal with like a counselor, if you haven’t already find one and be honest with them. The very first person I started talking to after I realized I had an addiction and the hell I was putting myself and everyone around me through because of it was a counselor and it helped beyond measure. It really brought up and helped me deal with a lot of the stuff that had pointed me in the direction I ended up choosing to take which lead me to chronic pornography/masturbation/sex addiction and ultimately sobriety.
Welcome back, keep hanging around!
I am back on track so far since Monday. I don’t have the urges yet. I feel confident that I can get past the 38 days this time. I think it is important to have a plan and a support system. I have been going to SA meetings. You can speak freely there with people face to face who understand what you are going through.
I agree that if you have some emotional issues that therapy should be something to look into.
Keep coming back here everyday also. It will help keep you grounded.
Checkin’ in 'cause I’ve decided to do it more often. Today was a weird day. Got a letter in the mail from some anonymous neighbors harassing us for not having a nice lawn. Super frustrating 'cause I’m disabled, my dad’s almost 70 and still working, and my mom (who’s also almost 70) is largely concerned with taking care of me. We’re middle-class in the middle-class area of an upscale city and can’t afford gardeners/generic upkeep and don’t have the energy to overhaul the place ourselves, but we’re one of the few original owners in our neighborhood, so it’s frustrating to get this harassing note from someone who, in all probability, is newer to the area than we are. Something else that ticks me off (and that I’ve been trying to change) is that we don’t even have a culture of saying hi to ppl when you pass them on the street. And if you live in that kinda culture, what makes you think you can anonymously harass ppl you hafta zaba search their names in order to know who you’re addressing? I mean, you earn the right to speak into someone’s life. So I took a step back, prayed, shredded the letter (my parents are out of town and don’t need the added stress), and will attempt to water the lawn more and lay down some seed 'cause of the old proverb “as far as it depends on you, be at peace with all men,” but frick if I’m not pissed about it and frustration/inadequacy’s a big trigger for me, so I’m venting here. Thanks for putting up with my rant about a relatively idiotically insignificant thing in the grand scheme of things (which is part of why I’m pissed about it). 
And another sprinkler-head just broke -_-
It’s a saying that things almost have a physic way of happening when we’re vulnerable. Be aware and stay strong!
Let it all die. Then those people’s sobriety will be put to the test!
You’re ruthless today 
Strained my neck adjusting a patient this last week. I dont have a lot of patience for irritating people.
Sorry to hear that! I strained my neck a couple weeks ago and couldn’t look right or left or up. It was extremely unpleasant, especially for sleeping. Is there anything you can do for it?
Get adjustments and massage. Which is what I’m doing for it. Just takes some time to heal.
Sounds like you need a chiropractor. 
Hahaha! Seriously! Fortunately, theres a guy in town that I trade adjustments with. Cant adjust myself very well.
Checking in to maintain focus… Woke up with a sore throat and a sinus infection. Start a class Tuesday at my local JC, so hopefully I’ll be up for it.
Take care of yourself, when an addict is not feeling well we often will go back to our addiction to make us feel better because that’s always been out go to to make us feel good when it actually does the exact opposite.
Thanks Pirate
I would like to take this moment to reflect on something that is a little bit of success. I am sitting here alone, wife just left for about 20 minutes, just got new internet service and it’s fast.
What I would have done a couple of months ago is different than what I am doing now. Now I am coming on here instead of going down the dark path.
Thanks for the support.
Yeah buddy! This place has saved me many a time home alone, which is all the time since my wife moved out. Good on ya for making the decision to stay sober. I better see a lot of posts from you when I get home from my meeting 
I mostly do a lot of reading when I come on. It’s very motivational.
I just wanted to put something positive out there.