Reasons for fighting


#544


This is me at day 1 sober. About 20 pounds ago and 46 days ago


#545
  1. Tomorrow is my mom’s birthday.

  2. Trying to do some tidying up in my room. It’s a little stressful sometimes, but it makes me feel better about my situation.

  3. I don’t want to be the kind of person who can never change, even at the detriment of my loved ones.


#546
  1. I am not the problem. It didn’t start with me. I don’t deserve self abuse.

  2. My mom would be awfully sad for me to give up on her birthday.

  3. I am allowed to be upset about this situation without internalizing it. I deserve a chance.


#547
  1. Our family vacation/thanksgiving is right around the corner. I want to have a sober family filled time.
  2. I enjoy caring
  3. My health has to come first.

#548

Good post! My name is Susie, and I have been sober for a little over 11 years now, there have been days when I wonder why I am staying sober, but then I think about all the wonderful blessings I have received since I chose this path of Sobriety…first of all, my older daughter has forgiven me for my mistakes I made when I was drinking. She moved out here, from Calif., to be near me, then she got married, and now I have a beautiful grand-daughter, and a precious little grandson! And I get to see them all the time! I wouldn’t be able to if I was still drinking! Almost all of my family have forgiven me . I have tried sending letters, cards, etc. Now it’s up to her, my youngest sister. I’m not giving up hope.


#549
  1. Not feel ashamed about my behavior.

  2. Feel more hydrated.

  3. So much more drive and energy.


#550

-Earn self respect again, be comfortable in my own skin
-Become productive, continue to work on creative projects
-Get myself on the list of priorities at last, preferably higher up!

More time helping the helpless…


#551
  1. So I can start doing things for myself instead of waiting in others

  2. There are so many unhealthy normalized aspects of various additions. I don’t want to forget that it’s pain.

  3. I have some control of myself. I’m still working on so many things with my mental illnesses, I’m not sure I’ll ever be done with them, but I can control this. I didn’t start with this.


#552

1.I’ll be a better mother to my son.
2. I’ll stop doing things I don’t remember and regret.
3. I’ll be more stable and gain my parent’s trust back.


#553
  1. I want my daughters to have a different childhood than I did.
  2. I don’t want to feel the regrets.
  3. I never want to be hungover again.

#554
  1. I sleep better, so I feel better.

  2. The only way to do anything right is to do it yourself. If I can’t get help I’ll make myself my help. I’ll climb out of this pit and change however I need to. I am a survivor and I won’t break that streak.

  3. I’m not going to fall to my father’s bad influence.


#555
  1. I want to live a peaceful happy life.
  2. My girls.
  3. My marriage

#556
  1. Every time I give in it drags my whole world five shades bleaker.

  2. My self worth needs the boost.

  3. Little kid me would cry about this. It’s not right.


#557
  1. I am starting to feel like I am living a life I always wanted.
  2. I stay more connected with people.
  3. I have more confidence in my own abilities

#558

This is my life, shouldn’t it be worth something???


#559
  1. I’d like to be reliable in some aspect.

  2. When I’m finally brave enough to face my fears, I want to be resolved enough to stand it. I want it to be sustainable.

  3. I’m sick of feeling undeserving of other’s admiration or interest. Of feeling worthless. Tear down the skeletons from the closet.


#560
  1. I know truthfully that the addiction isn’t what I want, it’s the relief. It’s the buzz.

  2. Addictions are horribly inconvenient.

  3. I’m pretty sick of all these delusions.


#561
  1. I like knowing I can drive my family home safe.
  2. Less social anxiety in the long hall
  3. I want to be someone my kids are proud of

#562
  1. I’m eager to get to a new place in life

  2. The less bad coping mechanisms I have, the healthier I’ll be.

  3. I never want to give up my chances at happiness.


#563
  1. Getting closer to God.

  2. More energy to pull myself out of depression

  3. I’d like to stop drowning out the world at some point.