- I want to build a better life, one with a brighter future.
- I want to prove that I can succeed.
- If I’m feeling lousy I don’t want to fall back on the addiction, because that’s digging myself deeper. Self destruction will only grant numbness, never peace. And peace is what I’m after.
- Life is not good sometimes but there are good moments, and I want to be in a place to enjoy them to the fullest.
- I’m trying to learn good coping mechanisms. This is not one.
- When I give into my addiction I lose my morals, my way of thinking, who I am. I don’t want to lose me.
- I had a lucid dream last night where I thought I gave in to the addiction and I was super anxious all day. I don’t want to feel like that.
- Others are hard to trust, so I need to be able to trust myself. The best way to start doing that is getting clean.
- We’re going to have a bunch of family over and it would be good to be clean through that.
- I just fulfilled the stupid candyland request and I want to enjoy the fruits of my labor to the fullest extent so no subliminal self disgust at a personal failure is allowed until I’m done doing so.
- I recently updated one of my stupid stories and I want to get the next chapter out within a year for once.
- The worst of the addiction happens at night and it’s getting really freaking cold so I don’t want to do the walk of shame in the freaking cold. Screw that. I’m staying warm and cozy and away from my addiction.
- I have a recorded Toy Story short I want to watch intrusive thoughts and self disgust free.
- I was wrong on the date for Candyland so that’s happening tomorrow and I’m hoping everyone likes my art and that I’m clean through it.
- I’m much more clearheaded like this and I really think I like it. Sometimes it’s rough, but mostly it’s good.
- I don’t want more reasons to be anxious about night
- I’d like to be clean through Christmas. The easiest way to do that is to not be not clean all the way till and through then.
- I need to help mom right now.
- I got myself out of an anxiety attack today without internalizing everything or anything. That’s the kind of healthy I want more of.
- This gives me more control over my life.
- I want to enjoy my chocolate orange without background radiation.
Ahh! I feel like I’m doing better. I really want to go cold turkey this time but I think that’s a bit too much pressure. Just as far as I can, and maybe a little more.
- I might update a story within a few weeks rather than a few years for once and that’s the greatest thing ever?? Like this could be a new record for me.
- My mother is coming home from her scans tomorrow and I want to be clean the whole day.
- I’m going to try and get into some college courses soon. It’d be neat to start that clearheaded.
- Going for week two, only four more days away.
- Holy frick I just wrote a chapter in two days and I’m flIPPING OUT. That would have never happened on addiction. If I can pull out the full rewrite in a day it would be a new record for my writing.
- My mother works so hard to keep our family together, I don’t want to hurt her heart any more.
My health , my children an my marriage
I like who I am and am becoming when I’m sober(I didn’t like the old me)…I might just be able to help someone else find a way out of the living hell of addiction…this is one of the only things I have ever found that I can place my entire confidence behind and stand by it
- Because just once is never once. It isn’t a gift to myself for working hard, or a goodbye kiss as I send it away forever. It tears me down and leaves me dead inside and lonely in the morning, feeling used by that vixen addiction.
- I would want my brothers to stop if our roles reversed.
- I need good coping skills, and I barely have the motivation for them normally. The addiction takes a friggin chainsaw to that. I’m a baby adult trying to make my way in the world and I can’t do that if my ducks are not only not in line but run over by a semi. No duck killers allowed here. That’s major bad.
Great responses, great prompt.
Today—
- I am so much more able to deal with the people I care about and the situations around me without defaulting to defensive, impatient or snarky behavior.
- I feel no— or way less- shame in being who I am. Not the heavy weight of hiding as well.
- No headaches.
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I’m feeling super lousy, but I know if I give to the addiction I’ll feel so much worse, and it’ll be so much harder to get back up.
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With winter coming on its going to be harder to feel okay.
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I keep grabbing new projects for myself because I’m bored and I’d like to work on them with a mind I can call my own.
A little better today.
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I believe tomorrow is my second week post first month. I’m not sure I’ve reached that before.
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I still need to do a rewrite and let’s be real, that’s not happening in relapse.
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Apparently both sides of my family are weaning out some bad behavior through generations. I’d like to stomp it out permanently, so I can’t fall to this.
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I have anxiety, and if I keep this stupid addiction it’s just going to keep me up more and stress me out before bed and that’s just bad.
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My animal crossing villagers believe in me. xD I want to say it’s sarcastic but they’re supportive little buggers.
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My mother’s last chemo treatment didn’t work, so she’s going to be starting something new I think. That means new side affects, I’d like to help support her.
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I’m considering going into psychology, and if I can’t handle myself I won’t be helping other people.
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I have a hard time leaving the house, feeling like I’m ready to leave the house. Not falling for the addiction’s trickery helps me feel more like I can.
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I ask for content, for peace. Buzzed isn’t what I’m going for and it keeps me from what I want.
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I want to go to church without feeling guilty
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Fighting will help me build motivation and motivation helps me do things I actually want to do.
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I feel more in control without it. I need more control in my life.
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So I can free my mind, and be me confidently without self judgement and to not be so damn irritable.
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So I can stop having my happiness be dependent to a stupid addiction instead of just feeling happy. To be self reliable
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So I can stop procrastinating, wasting my time on this addiction and feeling shame about the things I don’t do because of procrastination. Very metaphysical and a catch 22 really.
Last night I had to fight really hard, but I won.
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I’m updating my hecking story and tomorrow I’m going to read those hecking comments and be happy. No background radiation.
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My mom needs help with getting things ready for the holidays. Gotta be there.
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I wanna make it to twenty days. That would be awesome. Just like three more days.