I know I wasn’t very helpful for you in one of your other posts and I’m sorry my message was so harsh.
I want to applaud you for what you already have been doing as your choice to get sober is a big step. Trying and relapsing is another BIG step.
Want to offer my recent experience, in case it helps. AA helped me quit drinking but I just left the program because of the religious aspect. I went in knowing I didn’t align with most people’s beliefs about a higher power and I chose to not pay as much attention to that aspect of the program. I found comfort in other people’s shares, hearing myself in their stories helped me feel hope that I could make it out of alcoholism. It only took a few months in the program to know that I no longer needed to be there as much. The fellowship is what really helps in my opinion. If you can find people that you mesh with, that have a lot of sobriety and that you feel comfortable with, then you have others in your area that you can use as support. I now have tons of phone numbers of people I know I could call or text before I wanted a drink and just that action has kept me from drinking.
I started a thread for AA alternatives, there’s so many! Hope it’s a good day for you.