Fingers crossed friend - wishing you luck with the potential promotion 
Hugs:
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Look at you almost 200 days. Sending so much comfort vibes to you. I so love sharing your journey.
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Day 199.
Can’t believe that tomorrow I’ll have 200 sober days in a row. Truly unbelievable. I’ve changed so much in the past 200 days. Still struggle with some cravings or desires to escape, but nothing like it was in the beginning. Really grateful for this community.
Had a productive day today. Deep cleaned the apartment, touched on some deep issues in therapy, attended a guided meditation on the temple livestream (no energy to leave home and go all the way to the temple, so this was my compromise), got my meds from the pharmacy… Feeling pretty good.
See you all tomorrow for Day 200. Keep on keeping on, sober fam 
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Day 200 
We made it, gang. Feeling pretty good. Woke up on time with energy and motivation. Today will be a good day.
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So very happy for you. Let’s keep this going.
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Outstanding? So happy to be celebrating this wonderful milestone with you. Congratulations on your 200 days! Love joe far you have come ..keep up the great work 
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Day 202.
Things have been going okay, but I’ve definitely been drained of energy by the time I get home from work. I’ve napped every day this week, and it ends up messing up my sleep schedule. But I’m just so tired??
Still sober, so i guess that’s what matters most of all.
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Day 204.
What a week! So happy it’s finally my weekend. Normally after a week like this, I’d spend my night getting high as a kite. Instead I’m going to take a nap so that if my cravings are still strong when I wake up, at least the pot shop will be closed.
Doing everything I can to keep my sobriety.
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Day 206.
Yesterday was the first time in months and months that I slept somewhere other than my own bed.
I went to a good friend’s house. I haven’t seen her in forever. She was one of the first people I told about getting sober, since she wasn’t doing me at the bar or her parties anymore. And then with PHP and everything, I was just too anxious and scared to go anywhere other than work, home, or with my family.
I started off super anxious, actually had to take some of my as needed anxiety meds to stave off a panic attack from being so far from home (about an hour away, but still). And then could still feel the anxiety and tension until we finally sat down to eat. My friend was super patient and understanding. She made sure her fridge was stocked with NA drinks for me, didn’t smoke while I was over, set up her guest bedroom so I had a private place to sleep, and most importantly was just kind.
I admitted to her that I’m not the same person I was when she last saw me. She said, “I know, and I loved you then and I love you now and whatever evolution of you comes next.” That sure made me almost cry lol.
Sleep was a bit troubled not being in my own place, but I didn’t wake myself or anybody else with screaming, so it probably wasn’t too bad. In my way home I bought myself some ice cream in a cone and sat in the sun.
Just finished having therapy. Talked a lot about being a child trying to find sense and reason in an unreasonable household. I’m feeling very tired now, going to lie down for a bit before I can even think about getting some chores done.
Glad that I am over 200 days clean and sober.
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what a sweet friend. Grateful that you have her in your life.
Big hugs friend. 
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Day 208.
Feeling pretty good. This week my priority is waking up on time. So far so good.
Still here and still sober. One day at a time, yall.
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Heyyyyyyyy I haven’t talked to you for a bit
Reading that last post was about 208 days drug of choice free made me happy to hear
Amazing job and nice to see that post man
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Day 209.
Doing okay today after a rough work day yesterday. Trying to practice radical acceptance today.
Not much to say. I know that I pretty much never reply to any posts on this thread, but I do read and appreciate every single one. So just know that I see you, I am grateful for you and your words.
Have a good sober day, my friends.
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Day 213.
Been a few days since I posted, although I’ve been lurking. Hit 7 months of sobriety today. Feels like kind of a weird milestone, but a significant one nonetheless. It feels really weird for 7 months to have snuck up on me, when it feels like just recently I was counting my minutes of sobriety. The more time stacks up, the less inclined I am to break that streak.
Feeling alright. Work has been good, albeit a little stressful at times. Listening to a lot of audiobooks in my free time. I haven’t been to the buddhist temple in a few weeks, although I have checked in during some livestreams while at home. Today I have therapy, and afterwards I’m going to make a conscious effort to go to the guided meditation in person.
Celebrated a quiet and peaceful Lammas/Lughnasadh at home as well. Tarot reading was very hopeful and optimistic.
Feeling a little bit tired, but overall good. Ready for another 24 hours of sobriety.
Even though I almost never reply to comments on my thread, I do read each and every one of them. And appreciate the words immensely. Thank you all for your support and encouragement. It means the world.
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I love this. A huge congrats on your 7 months. It’s a wonderful milestone
Keep showing up for yourself
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Happy 7 months to you!!! Congratulations 
Glad to see u checking in and doing well!
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Finishing up Day 213. Had a productive day today. Finished all of my planned chores, so my apartment is nice and clean for the week ahead.
Had a fruitful therapy session as well. Said some things aloud for the first time ever, and once I did it hit me that wow, that was…really bizarre and not normal or even close to okay. I don’t want to go into details here, but suffice to say that the rabbit hole of my unsafe childhood just gets deeper and deeper. For example, being a little kid and wishing that there was some kind of agency that could take me away from my family of origin, like a service that protects children. How strange to think that was a fantasy of mine, because I had no idea that something like CPS existed. The quiet horrors of being homeschooled in a cult and kept away from the world…
Finally made time to go to the buddhist temple for a guided meditation. I can tell that there is a difference between how i feel attending the livestreams and how i feel attending in person. Really should make my spiritual health a priority again.
Heading to bed early tonight. Big day at work tomorrow. I have a meeting with my bosses to discuss my new promotion. Wish me luck.
Have a good 24 sober hours, my friends.
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Best of luck! 
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Day 214.
Had some stress dreams about being late to my meeting, but woke up on time. Just finishing up my breakfast and coffee before I do my morning yoga.
Breathe in. Breathe out. I can and will do this.
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I did end up being late to my meeting by like 15 minutes, but it was because I was actively helping some patients so it was no big deal.
Meeting for promotion went really well, I think! I actually got offered MORE than my highball offer, so that was great. Going to have everything finalized this week.
Feeling pretty good. It’s funny, my addict brain wanted to get high to celebrate. But that’s the way of the addict brain, isn’t it? Good news, bad news, successful day, stressful day…all “reasons” to use. Glad to be out of that pit, just need to keep walking down the path.
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