Day 266.
Quick check in here. Back at my own home and my own bed. Managing the pain best I can with non-opiods and alternating heat and ice packs. I’m also listening to my body and not trying to push myself too far in my pain. Overall doing okay.
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Oh that is good to hear. Keep recovering friend. 
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Wishing you a speedy recovery
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Day 267.
Finishing up the day. Pretty much did nothing but sleep, but that’s good. I did make a tiny trip to the grocery store but otherwise just played Animal Crossing and watched YouTube. Now I’m going to attempt some SUPER gentle yoga, a Tarot reading/meditation, and then a good night’s sleep. Goodnight, sober fam
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Day 269.
Quick check in. I’m recovering slowly but surely. Dreams have been really weird/disturbing lately. Therapy later today. The weather is nice so if I’m up for it, I’m going to go for a short walk. That’s all for now.
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Finishing up the day. I pushed myself a bit too hard with trying to do chores around house, so I’ve been trying to chase the pain away. Alternating heat and ice, but ultimately I did take the prescribed pain meds. Reminding myself that exacerbated pain inhibits healing.
Therapy was good. Talked about my surgery and how it felt to be cared for by my parents, and by the hospital staff. My therapist made a good point too. When I wake up from anesthesia, I’m incredibly complimentary and grateful towards the hospital staff, and was told by multiple people that I was a delight/a pleasure to take care of. I’m always worried that I’m secretly a bad person or I’m super manipulative and have everyone fooled that I’m actually evil or whatever. My therapist said that if I’m nice wren waking up from anesthesia, then that probably means I’m a genuinely nice person. So that was nice to hear…
Also processed the visit from my aunt and uncle a couple weeks ago, and how strangely affirming it was to hear that my birth mother was considered batshit before I even existed, that other people/adults could see that something was Wrong. And I talked a lot about how it really surprises me that I managed to stay alive for as long as I did, living in that house. Honestly, it makes perfect sense that I became an addict, because holy shit there’s no way I could have gotten out of all of that unscathed. I still have a lot of healing and deep work to do to unravel all of that abuse, but at least I’m sober enough to do it now.
Finished the day having an online movie night with some good friends. We watched John Carpenter’s “The Thing,” which I’ve never seen before. I love October and Halloween and horror movies, so it’s nice to get into the spooky season vibes.
Okay, that was a much longer post than I anticipated. Getting ready for bed now. Tomorrow is a new day.
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Most definitely. Do take it easy and let your body heal properly. The chores can wait.
Glad that you can see this for yourself…you have a lovely heart and I can sense that you are a very kind person irl🤗
That is super reassuring and a somewhat relief as it was not you that made her that way and it was not in your head. I think we tend to question these things as time goes on so it’s super reassuring to hear from a third party.
Best time if the year. The Thing was a classic… hope you enjoyed. Happy Halloween month 
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I almost never reply to comments on this thread as part of a loose rule, but Jazzy I just want to say that your messages are so incredibly kind and thoughtful, and for some reason this one in particular really resonated with me. Thank you for walking alongside me in this journey. 
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You are most welcome my friend 
. Thank you for sharing your journey with us 
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Day 270.
Got a call from my mom that my grandma (her mother) is transitioning from this life. She’s in her late 90s with dementia and on hospice, so while this is not unexpected, it’s still a really sad moment for all of us, especially my mother. Not much that I can do at this point. Just lighting a candle for her to hold vigil, and told my mom that I love her and she’s a great daughter and amazing mother. That’s all I can really do.
Keep on keeping on, sober fam
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much love friend - wonderful support you are giving 
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Day 272.
Disturbing dreams last night regarding my birth family. Woke up to find out that my grandma passed in her sleep last night. Feeling kind of numb. Talking a lot with my sisters. Physical pain is difficult today. I just want to turn off for the day. Sigh.
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So very sorry for your loss my friend. Sending hugs and my condolences
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Day 274 (I think).
And just like that, it’s 9 months of sobriety. That’s almost unimaginable to me.
Not much to report. Trying to go on more walks per my surgeon’s recommendation. I just get so tired. Also feel like I’m losing my mind a little bit just being at home doing nothing by myself. Been checking in on my family as we navigate processing our grandma’s death. She was the matriarch and the last of her generation. So we’ve also got to figure out logistics of funeral and all that.
Otherwise, I’m doing okay. Down to only taking Tylenol for the pain, alternating with heat and ice packs. My muscles feel sore, hence my surgeon recommending the walking. My post op appointment is Monday so that will be good. Not much else to say. Grateful that I’m sober. 
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Day 1 here
Woke up. Ran. Had a cigarette. Huffed puffed. Netflix.
Tomorrow…. Repeat lol
On a serious note, I plan to really plan my first 2 weeks today, as its Day 1, motivation needed
Congrats on your sober time Reese xx
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9 months!!! That’s fabulous work friend. Keep going strong 
. Glad to hear that you are recovering well from the surgery
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Awesome work in your day 1… Having a plan and a support network is vital for our sobriety. Glad you are here.
Join us in the daily check in thread…a way to stay accountable and meet more forum members
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Day 275.
Trying to get back to a somewhat normal sleep schedule. I’m supposed to return to work on Thursday. Woke up in a lot of pain, going to try Tylenol and heat/ice and hope that will help. Not much else to say right now.
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Day 276.
Post-op appointment went well, I’m healing quite normally. Therapy in an hour. Not much else to say today.
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Day 277.
Yesterday was good yet exhausting. Came to some pretty interesting breakthroughs in therapy. Did a lot of journaling.
I slept in late today. Sun is going down. Going to try to take a walk before it gets dark. Going back to work on Thursday. Just doing my best here.
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