Had a intense relapse dream , I drank a fifth of vodka in the dream “felt ok” woke up drenched in sweat. It’s like the dream depleted all of my energy for recovery or something. This experience has made today very strange and I just felt sick all day as if I did drank . I had a hang over from a dream! and sleep till 4pm . I Tried to restart my day the last couple hours. Went for a walk, caught a few people. It’s hard to explain what I’m trying to say but it has made today very very strange … I feel sick . I feel tired . I just want a break. This so-called God sees me trying every day. It’s not ok
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I felt similar after my last 2. They’re quite common and can come anytime per this one older fellow I knew at my previous home group. He still had them periodically and he’s got 31 yrs. Feel better soon.
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I have many of those, and they sure suck and leave you depleted mentally and physically. I drink extra water to make up for my sweating, take it easy, and go to bed earlier that evening. Hope you feel better soon!
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Yes it’s uneasy and the only good thing about those dreams is the fact that you are still sober/clean.
I am more then 3 years sober and still have such dreams some times
It helps me to see it as a warning that I’m in a fulnerable state of mind and I have to check my guards in sobriaty.
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Dream of drinking wake up sober , after a while it will be dream sober and wake up sober , wish you well
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I was once told by an older sober member of AA that relapse dreams are not only very common but also that they stem from an unconscious fear that we will bust again. So l don’t worry anymore that they mean l am craving in my sleep,or that l am about to relapse. I think of them as being protective of something that l hold dear even while l sleep-my sobriety in recovery. Wishing you pleasant dreams 
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Relapse dreams are very common and yes, they can be quite something!! You can search on here for dreams and find lots of threads …very interesting I think!
It is amazing how our bodies and minds can heal themselves thru these subconscious workings. And how we feel so deeply that we had relapsed…yet here we are, awake, sober, thankful!!! Our collective unconscious saying, I got you, you are healing, remember why you are closing that chapter. Strong stuff!!
Be gentle with your body, mind and spirit as you continue on this healing journey. 
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So it looks like I’ve had these dreams before. Judging from my original post a couple years ago I was definitely struggling with step two and three when I said so-called God. I can’t really remember the original post and where I was at in my recovery at the time but probably not doing much considering all I did was sleep to deal with it. I had another relapse dream last night same situation where I drank vodka. Probably because vodka is my drug of choice even though I’ve done everything and struggled with everything. In the dream last night it’s like it played the tape all the way through. I drank the liquor for a while and jumped ahead in time, then I was in detox, then I was leaving detox thinking damn I have to start over worried about if I was going to violate probation and go back to jail. Then I woke up felt a little bit of panic for a few minutes then realized it was just A dream. But I was very grateful it was just a dream and I was sober. This morning after the dream I went right into action and got right up and showed my gratitude by getting things done today. Definitely a lot different than the previous post I did A couple years ago. Glad I didn’t create a new thread and looked it up come to find out I had a similar dream a couple years ago and posted about it. I’m grateful for dreams these days because there is lessons. Grateful to be sober.
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Figure that the relapse dream was a freebie of how you would feel if you indeed picked up a drink or drug while awake and cognizant.
Do not consider that as an invitation or inevitable that relapse is coming. I had many "almost drunk dreams inmy 1st 90 days, then they disappeared. Kinda of like thinking the drink through but with that insane scared feeling that I had picked up.
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I definitely don’t see this as a invitation or like somethings going to happen like that. It was pretty cool to wake up and realize it was just a dream. I didn’t let it ruin my day and I got right to action. It was cool to see the way I’ve responded to these dreams in the past compared to now. I realize this is a part of recovery sometimes having these dreams. Thanks for reaching out.
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This is a good thing!! I wish I had relapse dreams like this. It means your unconscious mind is getting the message that booze is bad. It’s a blessing. Trust me!!
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It’s definitely a blessing. I know where drugs and alcohol will take me. It’s never gonna change. I’ve admitted defeat. The only way is living life on life’s terms sober. I guess the Relapse dreams are just another reminder.
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In all honesty brother, I have had these too… It makes you feel like you aren’t on a right trajectory and throws your balance off.
I know you feel sick, and tired of everything… I know I did, and it has happened quite a bit to me.
Though I detect your spiritual beliefs through the last comment, the best course for me was to pray (I just fell to my knees)
I also distracted myself immediately after I started feeling so down… I went to my family and just stayed around people who believe in me and my cause for why I am sober…
Keep fighting the good fight brother, I promise it is worth it.
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I have this consistently!!! I will wake up like having a nightmare. I hate it!
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Thanks for reaching out. The original post was from three years ago. I posted a couple days ago on this same thread about a similar dream but I went about it differently compared to three years ago. It’s hard to tell where I was At in my recovery then but I don’t think I was doing much and struggling with my higher power. These days I have a strong connection with my higher power. When I had a similar dream a couple days ago I quickly was filled with gratitude because I was still sober. And I went right into action. I don’t remember having any other relapse dreams besides recently and a long time ago.
I had one the other night but in my dream I didn’t drink it I was walking around with a bottle of jack in my hand trying to find the person it belonged to🤯my ex was in the dream also .I don’t know which one of the two I dislike more him or jd … . I woke the same as you sweating and anxious as hell ,felt off and moody all day. I’ve chosen to put it down to the fact that my brains figuring out my conscious is done with both of them as @wes said we keep on fighting the good fight bro 
I’ll pray for sweet dreams for you tonight 
They’re definitely not fun. But I’m learning sometimes dreams are trying to tell us something. Sometimes they’re random but most of the time there’s a lesson. Sorry you’re having bad dreams too much. Hope that changes for you
And of course I had a relapse dream last night, after reading this thread yesterday… It was a very stressful one too so feeling a bit drained this morning but glad to report all is well in my sobriety! 
I had one last night where I went to this bar and ordered a beer. Even when I was ordering it I knew it was the wrong thing to do. Like in my dream I was also going through sobriety. Took one sip and had regret. Crazy
I have asked my doctor and psych about this!! Almost 2 years 6 months sober and i still have the dreams but i always wake up before i can try and take them! I have no desire,no urge,no cravings or anything. But these dreams feel all too real
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