Hi there, what are you doing to stay sober - apart from just not drinking? Cos that’s not enough as you are experiencing yourself.
There are reasons why you reach for the bottle. These lie in feelings and inner conflicts you are trying to avoid and negate by drinking. In a program like AA, in therapy, in self help books to a lesser degree you can confront these reasons. So you can build a life that doesn’t need alcohol to be bearable.
You gotta turn it up a notch. Here’s some help: