So, I just relapsed again. Was at 20 days, before that 211. It’s so stupid. I should know the signs, warnings, and temptations well enough to have forewarning by now. Honestly, I relapsed last time around when I stepped back from the forum. I was doing so well, then because I was irritated with some drama in the forum, I walked away from the program I’d set up for myself.
So, I made it 20 days. Whatever, i didnt have any cravings in those 20 days. Now first craving comes along and I fall flat on my face.
I need to come back to my program. Work my protocols I made for myself. I’m coming back to the forum to participate more fully.
Welcome back @DungeonMaster!
I’m glad you’re giving us another shot.
There seems to be a significant number of men and women, in this forum, battling your same addiction.
Do you have any sort of support outside of this group? Ever go to meetings or anything like that?
You know the drill, my friend. It works if you work it. Great you’re being straight about it and stepping up that game. And of course we all win when you’re around.
Maybe I don’t catch all your threads… Do you have some local support as well, folks outside the forum to talk to in a pinch?
Our addictions are cunning, and will use anything to come back into our lives. What the f is wrong with you? Absolutely nothing, you are human. While this isnt a popular thing to say, relapse happens. If it didnt, this forum would be pointless. I am a firm believer in learning from stumbling. Make this relapse worth it. Learn and and get stronger. God’s peace.
No local support. I have friends I can message quickly though if I need. The barrier I need to get over there is in training into myself that I need to reach out before I begin to flirt with disaster. That’s always how I starts. Just a peek at something that’s not considered porn. Then it devolves into a full blown relapse.
Yup.
That’s the same process as any drug addict or alcoholic. I’m sure it’s made every more difficult by the fact that your DOC is literally always in your pocket.
Can you go the rest of the day without another relapse?
Well, I had two today and “got it out of my system”. Pretty sure I’ll have the same cycle as before now. 20 days before I get cravings. It’s like clockwork. I need to get over that bump, then I should be good for a few more weeks. Comes I waves.
