Welcome back Julia, I am glad youre still here. I can really relate to all of your share.
There was a time when I too suffered from debilitating anxiety, depression, and mixed manic episodes. Its exhausting, I remember and I remember how hard it was for me to stay sober during that time. Its a miracle everyday we get clean no matter if they are consecutive, dont ever forget that. The fact you are back here trying again right away is inspiring to me, and it gives me hope. I want you to know that after being a member of narcotics anonymous, staying off substances for 4.5 years and getting outside help I dont suffer with any of those mental health challenges anymore. Thats just my story, but I do believe that I have healed my mind by putting in the work. We do recover Julia, dont ever stop trying. Sending you a huge hug filled with so much love.
Thank you so much for this! 
I find the mental part of it so hard. Like im clawing to get out of my own skull. Crying to myself that i just cant handle the ups and downs anymore and the unhappiness. So what you said gives me hope 
Ayyyyyyyyy!
Happy Birthday!
And a milestone birthday as well.
Congratulations on all the gifts youâve given yourself in sobriety.
Happy birthday to you! Sobriety looks great on you and so does 50. A radiant smile right back to you. Well done!
You ainât gotta apologize to any of us here. You know we always have open arms for you sis. I canât even count how many day ones Iâve been through. Happy youâre okay
You look great! You are radiant! Keep up the good work!!
That looks awesome!
@Button83 great to see you posting friend and so very grateful that you sought help when those thoughts were so dark. 
. Be proud that you are still fighting the fight and heres looking at day 1 âŚa day won 
@KarenKW great to see you posting and a very happy 50th to you 
@Leviryan day 3 and moving forward
Great to see you Karen, and just as good to see you sober, and huge congrats on that, as well as happy birthday of course!
@Button83 Please donât be sorry. Glad youâre here Julia, glad youâre sober and safe, one day at a time for all of us. And yes, we do recover. Big hugs and much love.
@Leviryan Itâs good to see you too Levi. Use us as a tool of recovery. Hugs.
What is that?
Lets do this ⌠i need to rely on you guys for help @jbaldwin84 @Leviryan I need all of you in this community!
Happy birthday 
Happy birthday to you!
Hey. Day one is an ideal place to start. Get the basics down: good food, body movement, reading quietly, stay connected, hydration. No need to play big at first, just get back out your head and into trusting yourself.
We are all here behind you. Much love 
you deserve this.
3 weeks at the gymâŚI can actually see the results.
1 year 10 days. Doing things that are good for me. 
How was it? 
It wasnât bad but water was too warm. Well, was good for a begginer but it wasnât cold plunge, more like cool plunge 
I filled it up with the coldest tap water and thermometer showed 18-19°C (66°F). It should be max 15°C (59°F) for all the health benefits so today Iâm prepared 
It was definitely energising and made me laugh (and the rest of family too ) so worth even if itâs âjustâ cool plunge. I feel good when I challenge myself and itâs definitely a challenge. Makes me happy.
